My Saviour

(31) 'I'm a horrible person'

Chapter 31- Kayla's POV

Shit. Shit. Shit. I was not supposed to let that slip.

"WHAT?" Cole shouted and his eyes that were filled with anger widened.

"H-He and I-I are t-toge-" I stuttered but then was cut off by Cole's stern voice.

"How long?" Cole asked glaring down at me.

"A week." I whispered not daring to look him in the eye.

"Why didn't you tell me?" Cole asked looking so disappointed. I looked away not being able to handle all this guilt building up inside me.

"Because I know you and Kian don't get along. I'm so sorry Cole, I didn't want you to find out this way. I wanted to be the one to tell you!" I exclaimed. Cole has every right to be angry at me right now but the pain in his eyes made me feel so guilty.

"THEN YOU SHOULD HAVE TOLD ME!" Cole shouted at me. Once he saw that I had no reply he just shook his head and walked towards the stairs. When he reached the stairs he stopped for a split second and turned back around giving me hope. But he walked towards Kian and pulled his fist back. I already knew where this was going.

"Cole don't!" I sternly said but I was ignored when Cole bashed his fist in Kian's face. Kian didn't even flinch or utter a single word. Cole stomped up into his room while Kian just stood in the same spot.

At that point I couldn't stop my tears any longer. The tears were running freely down my cheeks as a few loud sobs escaped my mouth. Kian rushed over to me and put his arm around my shoulder and pulled me to his chest.

"I'm the worst sister ever." I cried out.

"No you're not." Kian tried defending me.

"Yes I am, Cole hates me! I don't know what to do, I can't have Cole hating me! He's the only family member I have." I panicked wiping my tears.

I ran upstairs to Cole's room. I tried to open the door but it was locked which didn't surprise me. I knocked on it waiting for an answer but I got nothing.

"Cole please." I whispered leaning my head on the door as I dropped to the floor resting my whole body on the door now. "Please open the door Cole." I pleaded a bit louder.

I bit my lip in order to stop the sobs trying to break free when I Cole didn't reply once again. I thought about giving up and just going to my room but I thought better of it.

"I'm sorry." I tried once again. "Cole please hear me out." I begged. The tears on my cheeks were drying out. "I didn't mean to hurt you." I begged once more.

I stood up with my blood-shot eyes and walked towards my room. I lay down on my bed feeling numb. I just stared out of the window no longer feeling pain or guilt or... anything.

"Kayla?" Kian opened the door and came in. "Are you okay?" He asked.

"Do I look okay?" I answered with no emotion in my voice.

"Kayla, I'm so sorry." Kian apologised.

"You have nothing to be sorry for." I answered moving away from him as he sat on my bed.

"Then why are you treating me like shit?" Kian asked looking like he was I pain. I just can't stop hurting people that mean something to me.

"Just leave me alone Kian! We should have never gotten together, it was all a mistake." I spit out not meaning a single word but I have to let Kian go otherwise all I will do is cause him pain.

"You don't mean that." Kian's voice cracked and his eyes watered. I hated myself for doing this to him but it's for the best. I don't deserve him; he deserves someone so much better.