Haunted

Therapy

"Tell me about your team." The therapist tells me.

"There's Gibbs, he is our team lead. Whole heartedly believes in tough love, I didn't get it at first, why he is the way he is but once you get to know him you understand. he's like a father figure in my life now. Tony is the opposite, kind of like a big child who wants to be Gibbs. He's funny, has a movie quote for every scenario and he is always up for a prank or a joke. Tim is like an over protective big brother, I mean we all look out for each other but Tim takes it to that extra level. He's also probably my best friend, the one I'd share everything with. Ducky is our M.E the sweetest person you could ever meet, incredibly knowledgeable and could share stories for hours on end and somehow I'd never get bored. Palmer is his assistant, he gets ahead of himself sometimes but he takes everything in and is learning a lot from Ducky. Then there is Abby, our forensic scientist. she's amazing at what she does, can always cheer you up when you are down and a little nosy." I share the details about my team, purposefully leaving one person out.

"What about Ziva?" She asks.

"Don't trust her at all." I reply bluntly.

"Do you talk to her?" she questions.

"Only about work" I tell her.

"How does it effect your team if you don't talk to Ziva? I imagine it would strain the relationships with everyone." She asks.

"Gibbs is basically a functional mute so he wouldn't even notice." I reply.

"And the others? Tim and Tony?" She questions.

"They talk to her and joke around. I talk to them and joke around. We just don't do it all together and the boys don't really mention her to me. It's fine." I explain.

I grow increasingly frustrated by the therapists questions like why I'm at therapy?, what I hope to achieve?, Why I don't trust Ziva which I have explained I don't know how many times.

"So you think Ziva is like her father and brother. Are you like your family?" She asks trying to make a point.

"Well my mother died when I was 2, so I have no idea and My father died when I was 9 and Yes I wanted to be just like him." I smile feeling triumphant.

"Well that's not how the world works, My father was a criminal but here I am trying to help people. Some people see what there family has done and they just want to put things right." She explains.

"Yes and some people find that when there Family is heavily involved in crime that it's easier to be a criminal then to resist and be thrown out of the family with no where to go. I have seen that many times at Ncis." I argue.

"Not everyone is bad though, that's a fact. Ziva is trying to prove herself at ncis and Special agent Gibbs and director Sheppard seem to think she is a good fit for your team. They wouldn't let anyone dangerous be a federal agent." She tells me.

"No because there is no such thing as moles is there?" I question sarcastically, knowing we had one when I first started.

"Yes but moles aren't common practice are they, these agents have to go through a strict background check to be accepted. Why would she kill her brother if she was working with him?" She asks.

"I don't know." I reply.

"There is no logical reason she would kill Ari if she was a criminal." She tells me.

"I thought you were supposed to understand PTSD! I know it's not logical. I know it's probably not true and I know Gibbs wouldn't lie to me but in my head Ziva has something to do with this and I can't help that." I raise my voice so she would finally listen.

"So that's what we need to work on then. Helping you over come your fears and help you to trust Ziva." She tells me calmly like this was her plan all along. 

A/N- Please let me know what you think of this in the comments xx