Your POV
I watch the video. The video of an interview Shawn did. Not a specific one, just one. He listens to the interviewer's questions intently and answers with a smile on his face.
It looks like he's on cloud nine. Incredibly happy. Shawn broke up with me about three months ago, just because he thought he was dragging me along and he didn't want me to wait for him. I waited for so many years. From the years he was on Vine, to Magcon, the Austin Mahone tour, the 1989 tour, Illuminate tour, and so much more.
I trusted him and believed in him. I helped him get over his anxiety. I went through all the rumors of him "dating" Camila, Hailey, Sabrina, and others. I even encouraged him to do what he loved when he thought he wasn't good. Recorded every video for Vine and YouTube.
He's sitting up there all alone on that cloud, too far away to hold me. I don't know if he still cares or what he thinks of me. Of course I still care, why wouldn't I?
I love him and I always will. He's living his dream and living mine. Yeah sure I am a little jealous cause he's living my dream as well and I knew that he was doing it for the both of us. He kept telling me that he could have me sing in front of Andrew and give me a little boost. I declined it. I didn't want to be known as the girl who didn't have any talent and just got help from a celebrity I knew.
The video ends and my phone rings. There's Nothing Holding Me Back plays as I reach out for my phone.
It was Shawn.
I sigh, pressing the green accept button and holding the phone to my ear. Shawn's melodic voice rings in my ears as he speaks a greeting.
"Hey Y/n. I honestly didn't think you'd pick up," Shawn said.
"Why wouldn't I Shawn?" I ask, "I'll always care for you no matter what state we are in."
"I'm glad to hear that. I just needed someone down to earth to talk to. Is that okay?" Shawn asked.
"Yeah, it's okay. What do you wanna talk about?" I question.
"How are you?" Shawn replies.
"Good, how's being on cloud nine?" I joke.
"Getting harder and harder to breathe to be honest," Shawn answers with a chuckle.
"Need a chance to come back down to Earth?" I smile a little.
"Yeah. I'm in the neighborhood, can I come to your place?" Shawn asks.
"Sure, the door's unlocked," I inform.
"Alright, I'll be over in 5," Shawn tells me, "see you soon."
"See ya," I reply and I hang up.
I go on YouTube and play Without Me by Halsey. It's one of my favorite songs right now. Suddenly, I hear a knock at the door and I quickly open it to reveal Shawn.
"H-" I start but I'm cut off by Shawn hugging me.
"I-I miss you so much Y/n. Knowing that you aren't mine stresses me out and I don't know what to do," Shawn cries, sobs wracking his body.
I wrap my arms around him, rubbing his back comfortingly.
"It's ok. You're with me now," I coo.
I pull away and lead him to the couch. Sitting down, I cuddle up next to him as he calms down.
"Tell me how's it feel sitting up there, feeling so high but too far away to hold me. You know I'm the one who put you up there, name in the sky does it ever get lonely? Thinking you could live without me. Live without me. Baby I'm the one who put you up there, I don't know why," I sing softly.
Shawn chuckles, "It amazes me how you aren't signed to a label yet."
"Well I don't think it's my time yet. Plus, I'm already on cloud nine," I smile as I look up at him.
Shawn smiles back and he kisses me.
I have him back. I finally have him back...
