Requested by musicever
Shawn's POV
You and me we made a vow
For better or for worse
I remember our wedding day. She said, "I do", and my world was spinning so fast and my heart skipped every other beat. Her words were like silk when she said them. So soft and I want to hear her speak every second of every day.
I can't believe you let me down
But the proof is in the way it hurts
I let her down. I let her down so many times. It hurts me just admitting it. I know I shouldn't have done it, but my d*ck got the best of me. We, as in all men, think with our d*ck sometimes instead of using what we should, our hearts and brains. It's too late now, I'll never get her back.
For months on end I've had my doubts
Denying every tear
I knew she cried, thinking that I'd do it, but I did it behind her back. I knew it was her worst fear, but I let all of my common sense fly out the window. She told me that she doubted I would ever do that to her. With the truth uncovered, she let those doubts fly out the window like my common sense did. I wish I could take it all back. Have one more chance. One more chance to rewrite the story, but nothing can be rewritten once the story's told.
I wish this would be over now
But I know that I still need you here
"I need you Shawn, but I can't trust you now! You don't know how this pain feels!" Those words haunt me. I wanted the world to stop, I wanted it all to be over. It hurt like a thousand flames burning me alive.
You say I'm crazy
'Cause you don't think I know what you've done
But when you call me baby
I know I'm not the only one
I told her she was crazy for the months that she's been accusing me of cheating. I didn't know that she knew, I just thought she was being overprotective. Voices shouting over the other. I argued back...
You've been so unavailable
Now sadly I know why
Your heart is unobtainable
Even though you don't share mine
I kept "going to the studio" every time the girl texted me. I refused to hang out with Y/n, just to go see the other girl. I'm so dumb, I can't help myself.
I have loved you for many years
Maybe I am just not enough
You've made me realize my deepest fear
By lying and tearing us up
We've loved each other for a long time. She was enough for me, but I refused to see that. She realized that her biggest fear was her partner cheating on her was before I did it. Way before me, but it just tore her up more.
It's hard for me to live like this. It is, so I decide to give Y/n a text. Hoping she sees it before I do something. Something I can't take back.
3rd Person POV
Shawn grabs a gun from a small drawer from the kitchen counter and loads it. Tears poured down his face, knowing the mistake he made. The consequences of the mistake he was about to make never entered his mind. A car door slams outside, and footsteps pound up the steps to get to the front door. As Y/n opens the door, Shawn sees her and pulls the trigger. Only a muffled scream and gunshot were heard that night, but more than tears were spilt.
"I love you Y/n and I'm sorry for making your worst fear come true. You won't have to deal with me anymore. I love you, goodbye."
(I hoped you liked it musicever !)
