Role Player World(Internet Love Series #1)

Chapter 9

Raven

In our GC. I used to call him kuya. I used to tease him everytime he's trying to become stubborn.

Yes, we are Fam before. Stroking each other charot.

Not until he chatted me and asked, "Lili, ilang taon kana?"

That's the true. The way he asked me, it's unforgettable.

I answered, "14." Well, that's the truth and he's 17 in that time.

And how ironic. Age of 18 was his limit. Limit to everything even his life haha how funny it is.

He courted me. It almost 6 days but if I am really the one who will choose, It'll be nice if 3 months or more but he keep insisting before 1 week.

Haha 'di ko inakala iyong mga pangyayaring iyon. Everything in the beginning has a purpose. Ang tanga ko lang para hindi mapansin.

It was 21st of October, he became my man.

Everything was going smoothly not until he believe in random girl, specifically his girl friend who had a secret feelings for him. He believe in her that I'm the suspect and she's the victim.

Like duh? I'm your girlfriend, why would you believe her?

Yeah, it was a setup in the first place.

I'd gave him a chance then we're okay again.

Month of November, bungad palang nag-away na kami haha and that was just because of bisexual. Damn it! End of November, if I'm not mistaken, it was 28, the day he left and came back in the day of 30.

Ang bobo lang, sobra sa katangahan. Buti mabilis nasolusyunan. Naku sino niloko ko? Hahaha

I'd accept him, again. I love him, no any other reason. But fvck, December 18, he left tapos litsi 20, magpaparamdam siya kasi 21 monthsary namin? Ako naman itong si marupok, tinanggap ulit!

Ang galing. Paulit-ulit iyong sakit hays. 'Di ko inakala na gano'n ako katanga damn.

Eto na. It was December 28, buong araw ko siya kachat even before new year.

December 31. It was my brother's birthday. I thought, it will be happy new year for me but nah, it's not.

Ang unang araw ko sa panibagong taon ay sakit, kalungkutan at panloloko.

Akala ko, totoo ang lahat. Na wala na siya, na iniwan niya na ako. Akala ko, totoo ang last will niya at kapatid niya talaga ang kausap ko.

Akala ko, siya na at  mahal niya talaga akong totoo. Akala ko, kasama ko siyang bubuo ng pamilya at magkakaroon ng mga anak na may pangalang Jacob Ezekiel, Sean Owen, Jeydon Lee at Pearl Alexandria.
Akala ko lang pala, mali kasi ang lahat. Lahat nalang akala.

Panloloko lang pala ang akala kong mapupunta sa katotohanan.

January 1st. They said he was dead. But February 28th, nagparamdam ang gago. Buhay pala hahaha. Then March, he want me back.

I tried. I really try but it turns out of nothing because I'm afraid to take a risks, again.

I'm afraid of being left--hanging alone and lonely.

I'm seriously facing hard times to make me believe on something and someone. A trust issue.

I-I really thought that he's not the right man for me.

Because once and twice and even thrice are too much and really enough, I won't let him to hurt me again like how he did on me.

The process on how I'd move on? I actually didn't move on in that time when he came back. I'm still into him.

But, I really don't want to feel the feeling I felt before.

Once a liar, always a doer.

"Hays. Damn, ang tanga ko. Nakakapagod ang araw na ito. Kailangan ko talagang magpahinga"

Hindi ko alam kung ano ang pumasok sa utak ko para pumasok sa mundong iyon.

Sakit lang ang dulot.

"Para po" sabi ko sa driver.

Role Player World to Real World ang gusto ko.

Hindi puwedeng sabihing pang RPW lang ako.

"Anak, kumusta?" Bungad ni mama.

"Ayos lang po. Papahinga muna ako saglit. Dinalaw namin si Pusa"

"Sige, tawagin nalang kita pag kakain na. Tutal, maaga aga pa naman"

Umakyat nalang ako. Nahiga at ipinikit ang mga mata. Huminga ng malalim at binuga.

"Sayang, ikaw ang panaginip kong gustong-gustong balikan."

At hinayaan ko nalang dalawin ako ng antok at makapagpahinga.