Afraid

Chapter 21

Leah's Pov

The past few days had been awful. I couldn't concentrate in class. I couldn't eat. I couldn't do anything.

Whenever Luke would ask me 'what's wrong,' I would just say that I felt sick, but in a way it was true.

I lost my appetite and for the last couple of day,s all I would eat was maybe toast and after that I couldn't seem to eat anything.

Luke had told me a couple of times to stay home and get some rest, but I was scared that if I did I would just end up crying the whole day, so I forced myself to go to school.

But no matter what I did, I couldn't stop thinking about Tyde and what he did. I hated myself for ever talking to him, I hated myself for ever being nice to him.

After what he did all I had felt was mad and embarrassed. I couldn't help but think this was somehow my fault. And the first time I ever got drunk, this happened and I hate myself for it.

"Leah!" I heard Luke yell from down stairs.

I rolled my eyes as I got out of my bed and walked down the stairs.

"I'm going to uni," he paused while grabbing his phone off the table.

"Will you be okay?" He asked.

"Yeah," I lied.

"Do you need anything?" He asked again.

"No," I answered.

"Okay I'll see you later, feel better," he said before leaving.

It always seems that I'm left alone.

I went back upstairs and got ready for school. I grabbed a pair of dark blue jeans with a red stripy shirt and white converse. I lazily brushed through my hair and left it. I didn't give a crap what I looked like to be honest. I hadn't been driving to school lately, I had been walking to clear my head.

After a pretty long walk, I arrived at school. I didn't feel like talking to anyone but Natasha because she was the only one who knew... and of course Tyde.

I walked to my locker and saw Natasha standing by hers, on her phone with a big smile on her face.

"Hi," I yawned.

"Hey," she put her phone in her pocket "you okay?" She continued.

I tried to force a smile but it ended up being an awkward one. Natasha hugged me. That's exactly what I need, my best friends hug.

I pulled away, "why are you smiling so much?" I asked her.

"Okay I wasn't going to tell you because this isn't the time for you, but since you asked, me and Ryder have been talking," she jumped in excitement.

"Good. Because you're a little obsessed," I told her.

She playfully rolled her eyes and we headed to homeroom.

After homeroom I started to walk to my first class, which was Geography, alone. I watched as girls walked past with their best friends, laughing. I wish I was happy at the moment.

I stared at my books in my arms while walking through the school halls, until I decided to look up and saw Aiden.

"Hey Aiden," I nudged my arm into his, but he doesn't acknowledge my presence.

Wait what?

He walked ahead of me, "Aiden" I yelled.

He didn't turn around.

Less and less people seemed to be crowding in the halls, considering the bell already went for first period.

"Aiden," I tugged at his arm and he finally turned to me.

"Why are you mad at me?" I couldn't help but ask.

"I saw you at the party," he said.

What?

An image of drunk Leah, hiding from Aiden in a crowd, came to mind.

Oh. My. God.

I'm Such an idiot.

I had completely forgotten about that.

"I know you lied," he added on.

I stood there awkwardly not knowing what to say.

"So much for having a family dinner huh?" He huffed and walked off.

Oh my god. What have I done?

Can my life get any worse?