Okay sorry for updating so much haha, but idk how much i will next week since i am going to the one direction concert is anyone going? the 27th? anyway i will probs update a lot this weekend who knows haha <3 thank you so much for the support you guys rock i mean it<3
“Ya I’m okay” I say softly, I didn’t know if I should let him in or not.
“Val told me not to come but I couldn’t help it, don tell Jacob of he’ll cut off my head.” He chuckled. I smiled letting the anger slowly fade, for now at least. I nodded stepping out of the way to let him inside. I know this was bad idea but Ky would be here soon!
“Sit anywhere” I say walking into the living room. He set down the bag but walked into the kitchen, he had put the ice cream in the freezer. He sat across from me as I sat on the chair.
“You watched the show huh?” I asked, he smiled and leaned back.
“No, well yes, Val is in my office in the night and she had that on” he says, his eyes roam the room and I feel like it’s a little less fancy than his.
“Its not much I know, but its no permanent, I want a new Condo but not now” I admit. I was looking for some but its better to be under the radared but I guess I wont be for awhile. I groaned thinking about Nash telling the world. I know I should be happy and jumping up and down but I am not. I don’t want to be in the spot light.
“Tell me what you are thinking” Matt says. I shake my head
“I didn’t want people to know, I wanted it to be under the rader I don’t want my wedding crashed, I don’t want comments online saying that I didn’t wear the best dress, I didn’t have the best food, the best place, that is was boring or less classy. And blah blah” I say frustared thinking about it.
“I understand, but you knew what your were getting into when you agreed to marrying Nash” he bitterly says.
“We kept it a secret for a long time, the only reason he said it was because of his stupid jealousy. I trust him why cant he trust me?”
“He trust you, he doesn’t trust me” he says smirking.
“and he shouldn’t” he comments. I roll my eyes.
“Thank you for the surprise,” I say
“but?” he smiled knowing there was a but. I chuckle
“you have to stop, it doesn’t look or feel right”
“It feels right to me” he stands up kneeling in front of me. I roll my eyes but I cant help but blush.
“Drink or ice cream?” he asked smirking.
“both please” he nods leaving into the kitchen. This is such a bad idea!
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4 hours later
I laughed way too hard I fell off the bed. I held my sides as Matt kept mimicking Jacob, he stood up straight and pretend to nag at me for being with me. The alchol was already deep into my system for me to care. I looked over at the edge of the bed, he was grinning looking down at me.
“You are wasted” he slurred, he laughed at him self.
“You know I will get you back for telling the guys I cried during that movie” he pouts. I smile sitting up. I reached to his cheek and softly stroked it. His face was just as soft as I remember, His lips full and pink. His brown eyes pierced into my hazel ones. I was way too drunk to realize we were close. I wasn’t thinking straight. Common sense was not in me.
“Why didn’t you try and find me?” I asked, he seemed taken back but I didn’t care. I wanted to know and I wouldn’t have the guts to do it sober.
“I did!” he said pulling away. He sat on the floor beside me facing forward while I faced the other way.
“I-“ he hiccupped and u laughed.
“I told Nash to let me know if he found you” he says leaning his head on the bed.
“He never did?” I asked he shook his head.
“I tried to move on” he comments, that breaks my heart a little more. I know its selfish of me but I wanted him to wait, even if I wasn’t available.
“and?”
“she wasn’t you” he looks at me, I can see the lust in his eyes and I can feel the sexual tension. He was the only I had ever been with. Ever!
“You know that I cant-“ my lips were covered with his own lips. His hand wrapped behind my neck pulling me closer. I didn’t fight. I didn’t care. I kissed back missing the way I felt. In the back of my head I knew I had to stop but I just couldn’t. it was way too long. Too many years had passed. I need this I need to prove to myself I can get over him. His tongue swipes across my lips and I let him have entrance, he pulled me on his lap and he groaned as I had my butt pressed against him. His lips moved to my cheek down to my neck. He found my sweet spot quick and I moaned. My hands roamed his chest remembering how I use to trace his tattoos. I felt his hands go under my shirt and I gasped. His lips meets mine again, my hands slide down to his pants, I start to unzip when he pulls away.
“Lets get some sleep” he said out of breath, I pouted.
“Don’t Riley I know you will regret it later come on” he said pulling me up the bed. He tucked me in kissing my forehead. He turns around walking towards the door
“No please don’t leave again” I say sitting up. My heart Aches remembering the feeling I felt when he wasn’t there. He turns around his eyes are sad and hurt and I can match his face expression. He walks over getting under the coves. I rested my head on his chest.
“Never leave again” my drunk self said.
“ I wont”
