✔︎ | Part of Me (Trilogy)

31 | a reason to return

31 | a reason to return

I think I'm going to tell Mom and Dad about him

Axel's still out when wake up, but I can't seem to fall back to sleep despite having only gotten five hours of rest. I lean over to kiss Axel's cheek, and he stirs, but stays sleeping. I could sit here all day just watching him, as creepy as it sounds. I could never get tired of looking at him, at his sculpted face, his features appearing softer under the warm glow of morning sunlight that seems to illuminate the light dust of freckles over his nose.

His bare chest rises and falls as he breathes evenly, a light snore whistling from his nose.

But, I can't stay here all day. I smile at him, ready to tease him for snoring when he gets up, and peck his chest before crawling naked and sweated out of the bed. I close the door behind me and open the living room window, glad to be higher up so that no one can peer inside and see me in my birthday suit.

I take a cold shower to wake me up even more, and clothe myself in Axel's clothes, something I find myself doing all the time even when I have my own that I could wear. His are just more comfy, and they smell like him, and remind me of how much love I have for him, and how freaking lucky I am to be with him.

I'm too unfocused to study for midterms, so I clean up a bit, which relaxes my mind more than I could explain, even though I hate cleaning. I put up a tea to brew and start with the washroom, clearing off the counter, tucking (mostly my things) back into their places.

I freeze with panic after sticking my pills behind the mirror. "Oh God, no," I mutter to myself, reaching back inside to pull the pack out. I glance back at the package and freak out, cussing myself out. This can't be good. I grab my phone and call Tasha, not knowing what to do, even though the better option would probably be to just Google it.

Axel cannot hear a word I say to her, so I step outside and sit down against the wall, begging for Tasha to pick up.

"Hey, girl," she answers, "how are you? How's Axel?"

"He got bail," I tell her, realizing I haven't told her yet, although she probably found out from my mom. "Listen, I need to talk to you."

"Everything okay?"

"I might be pregnant," I tell her.

There's a silence. "Congrats?"

"I can't have a baby!" I fret.

Tasha sighs. "Avi, don't freak out," she tells me. "Why do you think you're pregnant?"

"I forgot to take my birth control for two days!"

"When did you have sex?"

"Last night," I whisper.

She laughs. "Good for you."