His Story

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"I should've listened, I was foolish to think she'd ever love someone like me."

"After all, what are you again?"

"A monster."

"There you go."

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"Roder, where were you?" Ms. Sage ask me as I step through the door.

I take off my shoes and my gaze went up to her.

"At school." I reply taking off my bag.

"I meant after school."

I watch as Alazne come out her bedroom and watch us from the staircase.

"I went to pick up both Alazne and you but only found Alazne waiting for me."

I kept my gaze on Alazne, "Maybe because I was ditched and left to find my way around the school by myself."

My gaze flicker to Ms. Sage, "Maybe because I had to spend time in detention after school for being late to class."

I walk towards the stairs where Alazne stand with a guilty look on her face.

"I'm sorry —"

"Yeah, sure, I get that a lot but no one ever means it."

I pass her as I continue to walk up the stairs into the guest bedroom which was turn into my bedroom.

I throw my bag on the floor as I exhaustedly fall flat on my bed.

I glance up at the ceiling with thousands memories to tell it but all I wanted to do was vent.

Vent because of how stupid and naive I was towards Alazne.

Vent because of how fast I let her come into my life and have me this way.

Vent because I was an idiot to think she'd love someone like me.

"She's just there to hurt you, you need to leave, go far away from her."

Roder rest his hands on my shoulders, "Or, you have a other option, kill her and her mother."

"Ruin they lives."

"Burn the house to flames and smile at they screams."

A tear slip down my cheek, I didn't want to do it.

I couldn't.

"Your fucking weak."

"She ruined you! She destroyed you!"

"Pay that motherfucker back for what she deserves!"

He grab me by my throat, "Your a fucking loser if you don't."

"Your weak!" He scream in my ears.

"Meow," A soft voice said overshadowing the loud, outburst of yelling in my ears and head.

I quickly sit up on the bed as my gaze turn down to the small kitten.

I smile as I pick it up from the ground and onto my bed.

"How did you get in here buddy?" I ask as I pet the cat.

Someone clear they throat — I turn my gaze from the kitten and to the door where Alazne awkwardly stood.

"I — I brought him in here for you."

I nod, hoping she'd leave after, but she just allowed herself into my bedroom.

She sit on my bed, "I'm really sorry." She apologize.

I nod again.

"Roder —" She reach out to touch me but I stop her.

"Don't call me that." I interrupted her, "You don't deserve to call me that."

She nod, resting back her hand on her lap as she watch me play with the cat in complete silence.

"I guess you don't want to talk." She whisper a few seconds later before leaving.

I watch as she shut the door behind herself and left.

Not even taking a second glance back at me.

I turn my direction back to the kitten who was fast asleep on my bed.

I needed to name the cat, but had nothing.

Then suddenly, the name Jolly came to mind and I stick with it for the cat.

"Jolly" I pet the cat again before leaving the room.

"Ms. Sage," I said, Ms. Sage gaze traveling up to me as I lean on the staircase.

"Have you seen Alazne, I just saw her went downstairs and was wondering."

Ms. Sage pointed to the door before taking a sip of her coffee, "She said something about wanting to be alone before putting on her shoes and leaving." She shrug, "I don't know." She continue on.

"I can't keep up with these teenagers."

I nod, jogging down the stairs and quickly opening the door.

"Alazne?" I search the perimeter for Alazne, knowing she couldn't have gotten that for.

I glance at a Jeep park in front of Ms. Sages' house and then at Alazne who enter the car, kissing the boy in the driver's seat.

I squint my eyes as I try to peek through the dark windows.

The boy roll down the windows and lopsidedly smirk at me, throw up his middle finger and roll up the windows again.

He did all of this and she was unaware of it all. 

Distracted by what she thinks is love.