Blurred Sentimentality

Will I Know? (Ch. 40)

Olivia

"It's that.. I.. I'm in love with him." Sera mumbled, making my heart sink to the floor. "I love Chaz."

She was now a step above me. She actually loved him. I didn't love him yet, but I liked him so much.

"Does he love you back?" I whispered. I had to force the words out of my mouth. It felt like my lips were sewed and my throat was locked.

"I don't know.. his actions proved that he did, but his words didn't." She sighed painfully. "He treated me so well. He was, and still is perfect. He was the best thing that happened to me. I care about him."

I didn't know what to say. Chaz treated me so well too, and he was perfect to me too. I deeply cared about him and was ready to do anything to remove his pain and make him happy. Did that mean that I loved him too?

"He would take me to his friends' houses, drive us around, kiss me, be there for me, make me laugh.. so many things." She whispered, and I felt that.

"But.. He didn't let me be there for him." She said as a tear espaced her eye.

That was exactly what was happening between me and Chaz now. He was perfect to me, but didn't let me be there for him and didn't even let me know what was wrong. If that was what ended Chaz and Sera, it meant that that would be Chaz and I's end too.

"Did he tell you..?" I asked stupidly and she shook her head.

"You know.. I'm kind of jealous of you." She let out a pained laugh.

"Why?" I asked firmly.

"He made me happy, but I've never seen myself make him happy like you do. I've never seen him look at anyone the way he looks at you, like he's so protective of you and doesn't want anyone to touch you." She said painfully and I was between being about to cry and smiling till my cheeks hurt.

"He didn't tell me though.." I whispered.

"I'm sure he will." She shook her head and I looked away.

"It's just.. I'm sorry if I'm being annoying but I love him so much I can't stay away from him. I don't want to get in between you two but it hurts to see him so happy with someone else." She added. At first, I was understanding. But her last sentence made me lose it.

"Sera." I said firmly. "If you love him, you'd care about his happiness. You'd be happy for him wherever he is. I'm not saying that because I like him, but because I care about him. If he were happy with anyone, even Brittney, I'd let him be."

A huge blanket of awkwardness covered us before Sera spoke again.

"You're right." She forced a smile. "Thanks for your time."

I nodded as she got up, grabbing her stuff and heading back to the villa.

I got up to leave, and Chaz randomly popped up infront of me, making my eyes widen.

"Chaz!" I squealed. A wide grin was on his lips.

"Hey there, Ollie." He winked.

"Did you hear..?" I trailed off and he nodded. My cheeks turned extremely red. No way in hell he heard that.

"I deeply care about you too." He snaked his arms around my waist and I bit my lips in nervousness.

I slowly looked up at him and he had a smirk on his face. His blue eyes were bright and shiny.

I opened my mouth to talk, but I couldn't. My rapid heartbeat was so fast and loud that it was the only thing I heard. I pursed my lips and looked away from Chaz's intense eyes. He raised a hand and placed it on the side of my neck, electrifying me and forcing me to look back at him. His smirk shrunk and was replaced with slightly parted lips.