Blurred Sentimentality

Cold (Ch. 43)

Olivia

"How is he coming?!" I blurted out.

"I might've took Jay's phone and texted him that you're sick..?"

"What?!" I screamed. "How did you guess his pin?"

"Taylor helped." She shrugged.

"I-" I didn't know how to feel. I've been acting like a ghost when he was gone. I was both nervous and relieved.

"Where is he?" I mumbled weakly. That's when I heard a sound of a loud engine pull up. My eyes widened and I stood up quickly, running outside.

Chaz was there.

No way.

He looked tired and messed up. His hair was messily defying gravity and he had a black shirt and jeans on. His eyes were dark and had dark circles below them. His eyebrows were furrowed as I was shaking in nervousness.

When his eyes met mines, I shivered at the intensity, only that his hard expression didnt change. He usually smirked, smiled or atleast raised his eyebrows when he saw me. Now, he didn't change. It reminded me of how we were before we started talking.

His lips parted slightly, and when I thought he was approaching me, he rushed to Jay, who was far by his tent.

The moment he saw him, he shoved him to the back.

"What the fuck? Where were you, Chaz?" Jay gripped Chaz's shoulders.

"Why did you lie? I was better off there." He gritted his teeth.

"It's not Jay." Sera rushed towards them as they watched her.

"It was me." She sighed after she stopped in front of them, shrugging weakly next to the boys.

Chaz violently pulled himself away from Jay and glared at Sera.

"I.. Olivia was so messed up because of you." Sera stated and I face-palmed myself.

"What do you want me to do, then?" He stated casually and my heart ached.

"Chaz, what are you saying?" Jay narrowed his eyes.

"I don't give a fuck." He shrugged, heading back to his cycle.

Everything was going in a blur. Did Chaz just say that? I watched him weakly as he walked towards his cycle angrily. We were back on level one.

"Wait!" I cried, and his cold glare met mines again.

"Don't go." My tears threatened to fall as I approached him. Sera and Jay retreated, walking away to give us privacy.

"Why do you not want me to go?" He crossed his arms, not wiping his angry expression. I shivered and goose pumps formed on the back of my arms.

"I don't want you to go. I miss you." I built up my courage to say that. My voice was literally shaking. He was standing tall above me, dark blue eyes glaring down at me.

"I thought you hated me, Olivia." His glare became colder. He said it in a mocking tone that made me suddenly get all silent.

"I don't." I shook my head. "I was just angry."

"I told you a lot about me. I opened up to you in a way I never did to anyone." He laughed. "I don't care what you meant."

"I've never did that to anyone before." He shook his head. "You're all the same."

"What are you saying?" Tears flowed in my eyes. "What do you mean?!"

"Goodbye, Olivia." He turned and continued his paused walking.