Blurred Sentimentality

Complicated (Ch. 29)

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Olivia

I opened my eyes steadily. My vision was way less blurrier than before. What happened? I couldn't remember anything. I squinted hard then tried to focus my eyes. I was in a white, clean room. It smelled like sanitizer and had many bright lights.

I closed my eyes again, and when I realized that I was back to my senses, I looked around.

I was in a hospital.

Memories started fading in my brain. I was stressed out because of Chaz and Matt and everyone. I got in an argument with Chaz, then one with Matt. When I forced my brain into thinking, I remembered that I saw Matt kissing Kendall outside of the school. I bit my lips and sighed. I didn't want to remember that.

My vision shot back when I heard the door creak. My parents ran up to me and for the first time in some time, I was glad to see them.

"Olivia!" My mom exclaimed as she placed a hand over her mouth.

"The doctor said that you fainted." Dad said firmly after a long pause.

"Really?" I asked in a low voice.

"Yes, What has been stressing you out 'Livia?" He asked.

"I don't know. Exams." I lied and looked away.

"Honey, if there's anything bothering you about exams we can help you." Mom said and I smiled gratefully. I was genuinely grateful.

"Okay mom, thanks guys." I murmured.

The room filled with comfortable silence before I spoke again.

"How did I get here?" I asked.

"Oh, your boyfriend got you here. He has been waiting outside. Let me call him." Mom said and rushed outside, followed by dad. I didn't want to see Matt, and I didn't like when they called him 'my boyfriend' yes, he was. But it didn't feel right.

I sighed and looked around a bit more before the door rapidly shot open. "Olivia!" Matt's dark eyes widened.

"Matt." I said calmly. He slowly closed the door then approached me.

"I'm so sorry you had to see that." He said quickly.

"Had to see that?" I raised my eyebrows.

"I'm sorry it happened in the first place. I didn't want it." He whispered.

"If you asked me, I could say you looked so into it." I glared, pain invading my brain.

"I'm sorry. Really." He said. I had no right to be mad at him. I let Chaz kiss me. And make me a hickey.

The hickey! I looked down, and thanks god, no one removed my hoodie.

"It's fine." I murmured. I didn't want it to be fine. I wanted to yell at him for humiliating me and kissing Kendall in public. I wanted to slap him and ask him why he did that. I wanted tell him that it wasn't okay. But it wouldn't be fair, would it? I didn't push Chaz away when he placed his hot kisses on my lips, or when he cupped my face or pushed me against a wall, sucking at my bare neck.

"Can we put all of this behind us and move on?" He asked in doubtful, low tone. "The Kendall, Chaz scenes and everything." I nodded and he leaned in and placed a kiss on my cheek.

"I've got to go now. I'll see you." He smiled and I nodded again. He then walked away and closed the door behind him, leaving me alone in the quiet environment all over again.

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After a couple of hours, my parents took me home. I apparently fainted due to stress and anxiety and according to what my doctor said, I was most likely to faint again if I didn't learn how to calm myself down.