Secret Love

Chapter 23

Austin Point Of View.

Boy I'm sure glad that me and Dez are friends again.

My phone starts ringing as I walk home and I see that it's Kira. I groan and answer the phone.

"Hey Kira" I say in my fakest voice ever.

"Hi Baby" she giggles

"What's up?" I ask

"Well I just found some information that you'd like to know" oh god I bet it's about someone.

"What is it?" I ask bored.

"Dez is gay" she says and I'm shocked.

"What".

"Yeah he likes dick. Can you believe it?"

I don't know what to think. I mean. I hate gay people! It's just wrong! How am I going to act around Dez now? I guess he didn't tell anyone. If my parents found out they would be disgusted. Should I tell them?

"Oh. Alright. Thanks for telling me"

"Anytime love " she says and hangs up.

I have to call dez.

"Hello?" Dez asks into the phone.

"Dez." I say in a stern tone. "It's austin"

"Oh" I hear a sniffle and a yell, then a sound like a bottle smashing against a wall.

"TAKE OFF YOUR SHIRT FAGGOT" I hear Charlie yell. (Dez's dad) yell.

It seems like Dez forgot to hang up the phone. Suddenly I hear a whack and a cry.

"You deserve this Dez" another whack.

A few minuets later my mind registers what's going on. Dez's dad is abusing him. I don't know how many whacks that was but I'm assuming more than 10. I hear Dez whisper into the phone "I'm sorry" and then it hangs up.

Should I go over to his house? The answer is yes.

I run over there as fast as I can , when I reach the house I see Charlie's car gone so he's not home. I knock on the door but no one answers. I walk right on in and I'm glad that it was unlocked and run up to Dez's room.

When I walk in, I cannot believe what I see. Dez, holding a blade to his wrist.

"DEZ STOP" I yell and whack it out of his hand.

"AUSTIN GIVE IT BACK! I DESERVE IT!" He yells back again and tries to get it. I hold him back.

"No you don't dez" I say to him and he continues to cry in my shoulder. I just let him cry and cry. I don't care if he's gay or not. Love is love. You can't help who you fall for.

"I'm sorry Austin" he mumbles into my shirt.

"It's alright" I kiss his head. "C'mon let's get you washed up" I help him up as we walk to the bathroom. I wash and put a bandaid on his wrist.

"Take off your shirt" I demand. Dez looks panicked.

"No Austin.. Please . I don't want you to see "

"You have to so I can help you" he finally gives in and I take it off for him.

What I see pains my heart. Dez has hundreds of scars on his back and some on his chest. There's is at least 20 scars bleeding. I take a rag, wet it, and place it on his back , he winces. "Sorry" I whisper and he nods. I continue my actions until they stop bleeding, then I put cream.

"Dez, why haven't you told me?" I whisper. We are now laying side by side on his bed.

"I didn't want you to worry. And you seemed like you didn't care" he whispers.

"Dez, of course I care. And I always worry about you. Please don't cut again" I place a kiss on his forehead.

He smiles a little.

"Thank you" he whispers and buries his face in my shoulder.

"Why didn't you tell me you were gay?" I ask him softly.

"I figured you were homophobic, and you would probably leave me. I'm sorry you found out this way"

"It's okay, really"

He looks up at me shocked.

"How is it okay?"

"I can never be mad at you"

He smiles at that and I'm happy.

"Hey you finally smiled" I say

"Yeah I haven't did that in a while"

I nod.

"Austin.?" Dez asks.

"Yes?"

"I think I like you" dez says shyly. Aw.

I don't say anything.

I just wait.