Dez POV
Tonight is Austin and I's date. I'm honestly very nervous. When was the last time I've been on date?? See I can't even remember! Shit ! Okay. I don't have to worry so soon, it's in 5 hours so I don't have to worry... Until later. I guess I could call Eli and ask for advice?
"Hello?" I hear a noise and a moan. Ohhhhhh. I think I called at a bad time.
"Oh um, I think you called at a bad time." Eli says and I hear Grayson say something sexual something like I'm going to come. I hang up after that .
I guess he won't be a help at all. I sigh. Maybe I'll call Oliver?
"Hello?" He says
"Hi, Oli, it's Dez"
"Oh Hi, what do you need?
"Can you give me advice for my date with Austin?" I ask hopefully
"Wow you guys are going on a date?"
"Yeah tonight"
"Oh. Well you knew Austin for a long time so honestly you don't have to be afraid to be yourself" he says and I was scared of this reply.
"The thing is I'm afraid of being broken again by Austin. And the real me is annoying as fuck" I say and hear him sigh.
"Oh Dez. You just have go with the flow"
"You were no help but thank you" I say and hang up.
Oh goodness. I wish Austin would've told me where we were going because I keep worrying about it.
I hope I don't be too annoying to Austin. Just like my dad said. "You'll never be loved , you worthless fucker" he said. And he was right. He's always right. I can't stay in my happy front for any longer honestly, I run upstairs and begin to cry.
WHY AM I WORTHLESS?
I SHOULD JUST FUCKING DIE
THIS IS WHY I CANT BE HAPPY
SOMETHING BAD ALWAYS HAPPENS I CANT FUCKING TAKE IT! I look for my razor blade and cut my wrist multiple times. I watch the blood ooze down and start laughing. I feel numb. It's better than feeling pain.
Reality strikes me. Oh Austin is going to be so upset with me! I bandage up my arm and go lay down. I fall asleep.
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Austin POV
I can't wait to take Dez on our date. I didn't tell him where we were going because ... Well it's more romantic. It's almost time for me to go to Dez's house and pick him up. Oh i can't wait!
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Secret Love
Romance{Deztin Fanfic} Austin has a great life. Great friends. Great Parents. and A lot of fame. He believes everything is great and to be happy all the time and is really self centered sometimes. Dez has a not so great life. His friends think he's weir...
