hurts like hell

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How can I say this without breakingHow can I say this without taking overHow can I put it down into wordsWhen it's almost too much for my soul alone

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How can I say this without breaking
How can I say this without taking over
How can I put it down into words
When it's almost too much for my soul alone

The day the boys came home, shattered your soul. Cup walked in holding the shattered remains of his brother. Everything went by in slow motion. You tried to distance yourself to keep from showing just how close you were to him.

It was almost too much for you to even give your eulogy at his funeral.

I loved, and I loved and I lost you

I loved, and I loved and I lost you
I loved, and I loved and I lost you

You loved him so much. You two were in a secret relationship. Mug couldn't stand being forced to love Cala Maria, she just wasn't the one for him. He asked you out behind her back and you said yes.

After everything you've given up for him, everything you fought for, all you had was a love that would forever remain a secret.

And it hurts like hell

Yeah, it hurts like hell
Cup judged you harshly for your emptiness. You were hollow without Mug. He was your everything, and now that he's gone, you're nothing but a husk.

I don't want them to know the secrets

I don't want them to know the way I loved you
I don't think they'd understand it, no
I don't think they would accept me, no

You moved out of the small village, away from all the pain. Those secrets were yours to keep and you were gonna take them to your grave. You didn't want Cup to know how much you meant to his brother. He would never understand. He would never accept you.

I loved, and I loved and I lost you

I loved, and I loved and I lost you
I loved, and I loved and I lost you

You sat outside your old house crying as you shoved the last box inside of your car. It hurt so much that it killed you inside. Cup watched as you broke down hysterically. Your balled fists furiously swiping the tears away uselessly.

And it hurts like hell

Yeah, it hurts like hell
Cup knelt beside you. He felt bad for being such a jackass to you.

"You really cared about him, didn't you?" he asked as he pulled you into his shoulder.

Dreams fight with machines

Inside my head like adversaries
Come wrestle me free
Clean from the war
"He was my all! And now, I've got nothing!" you sobbed.

"I know, he talks a lot in his sleep y'know" Cup said half cracking a smile.

"You knew? And you didn't say anything?" you hiccuped.

Your heart fits like a key

Into the lock on the wall

"I knew he hated Cala. I couldn't stand her either and I hoped that any second would come that he would leave her for good. He deserved better, he deserved you" he said with lifting your gaze up to him.

I turn it over

I turn it over
But I can't escape
I turn it over
I turn it over

"How can I get through this when I've got nothing left to redeem?"

"Well, the thing about hitting rock bottom. There's only one way to go, and that's up" Cup smiled helping you up.

I loved, and I loved and I lost you

I loved, and I loved and I lost you
I loved, and I loved and I lost you

You smiled back, hugging him. Baroness Von Bonbon walked up.

"Let's get your thing back inside love! I won't be losing a friend because of some salty sea wench!" she cackled grabbing boxes.

Cup did the same as you opened the door to let them in. You underestimated them, they truly were your friends.

You grabbed the last box and looked down.

And it hurts like hell.

A single tear slipped down as you smiled.

"I love you Muggy and I'll miss you" you said as you kissed the photo before placing it in its rightful spot.

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