Capturing Mine

“I'm giving you my permission to rape that drunk woman,” she said that got my eyes widen in astonishment.

Is she serious? Ibebenta talaga niya sa akin ang pinsan niya? Hindi niya alam kung ano ang pinagdaanan ko bago kami magkausap kanina. The heat that I was feeling before I exited this room earlier hit back to me. Fuck! Just a little more teasing or whatever, I'll definitely be damned — Diane will be damned!

“I know how hard to see a person who's almost naked especially when you both are canned, so, good luck!” She then pushed me inside, leaving me edgy.

Hindi agad ako nakagalaw at napatitig lang sa babaeng natutulog sa harapan ko. Why the hell is this happening? She's so damn wasted, and I am drunk, we're both drunk, and... and w–we're in the same room. Do you know how I feel about this? It's no good, this looks too romantic. The lights, the bed, the good scent of the candle, shit. No, Jacob, you are gay! This is nothing, she's just teasing me.

I face her and vigorously mutter, “You're insane, Martina!”

She just grin at me like a demon as she oblige closing the door. Mariin kong ipinikit ang mga mata ko nang maiwan niya ako nang may isang babae sa likuran ko na hindi mo malaman kung dahil ba sa kalasingan kaya hindi na nakapagsalawal o sadyang balahura lang talaga. Hindi naman siya nakahubad kanina nang iwan ko siya ah, bad trip!

Unti-unti ko siyang nilingon at hindi ko mapigilang magalit sa sarili ko nang makaramdam na naman ako ng kakaibang init sa katawan ko. Paano ba namang hindi? She's wearing nothing but her undergarments while lying on bed like she has no one to sleep with. Her pair of black lace underwear.... God! I need to cover those body of hers before it's too late. She has no effect on me, nothing. We've been like this for so many years, and I am used to it, I am. Get a grip on yourself, Jacob. She has no effect on you, she's your bestfriend and she is an effing woman. Look at her, tss!

“Parang 'di babae,” I hissed as I walk towards her.

Oh, if you'll only see her now, she's so tanked. The strap of her brassiere is not on her shoulder anymore. Her panty — bullshit! Bakit kailangan ko pa bang tingnan? Ugh, I can't help it, she's so beautiful and sexy! Wala siyang fats, natalo niya ang ka-sexy-han at beauty ko. Yes, Jacob, remember, you are gay and are moving on from your great heartbreak. Please, 'wag kang bumigay nang dahil sa libog lang. Huhu, I won't, I will not.

“No, I will not, I will not,” I continuously repeated to myself.

Hindi ko alam kung magdadahan-dahan ba ako o magmamadaling hilahin ang kumot na nadadaganan niya sa kama. Ayaw ko siyang magising, hindi siya puwedeng magising nang lasing na lasing. Iba rin kasi ang isang 'to 'pag nasosobrahan, hindi niyo magugustuhan. She's terrifying. Alam niyo naman kung ano ang nagawa niya noong nasa island kami, 'di ba? She tried doing it with me and I bet, something might've happened if only I didn't stop the both of us. Fuck!

“Hmm, Jac...,” she drunkenly groan.

[A/N: Jac as in Jake.]

Medyo nakahinga ako nang maluwag nang hindi na siya muling gumalaw o magsalita.

“Sleep tight, beb,” I told her, but the right mindfulness that had been left through my senses fades when she slowly run her hand on my arm.

Hindi ako nakagalaw, nakatitig lang din ako rito habang nilalakbay nito ang braso ko at wala akong nagawa nang bigla niya akong hinila palapit sa kaniya, too close. Tanging ang mga kamay ko lang ang nakatukod sa gilid niya nang hindi ako tuluyang bumagsak sa ibabaw niya. She smiles, caressing my face. Why do I see her looked even prettier than before? I mean, nakakapanibago. Or maybe, nate-tempt lang talaga ako? Her eyes full of ecstacy, her flushed face that can still be seen in spite of the dim lights, her moist lips. She looks so pleasing, and her body, it's inviting — Oh, no! No, no! Diane, please, let go of me!