Even If It Kills Me (One Direction and The Vamps Fan Fiction)

Chapter 42

Emma's POV

I woke up at 7 in the morning, we had just parked at who-knows-where-at-this-point. I quickly took a shower and changed into a tank top and jean shorts, I decided I needed a little walk.

Last time I went on a walk though I was attacked and thrown into a pond. Let's hope this one ends better.

I leave a post-it note on Harry's forhead saying "Went for a walk. Be back soon. -Emma" I don't want him to be anymore concerned for me then everyone already is. Some of them stare at me like I'm about to break any second. I hate it. I feel weak around people and I don't like it. I just need time right now.

All I have been thinking about is if going on this tour was actually a good choice. I wouldn't have met Tristan, Harry, Niall, Zayn, or any of the boys if it weren't for this tour, but I feel like all I have caused is pain. It hurts everyone, especially Tristan and Harry, to see me in pain. It hurts me even more to see them in pain.

As I walk down what seems to be a downtown area of some North Carolina city, I can tell that it is going to rain. That's fine by me.

Rain is one of my favorite things.

I have always found rain to be so beautiful despite it also being so sad. Some people believe that rain is like someone crying. I do wonder what they would be crying over. Perhaps it is how society breaks people. I feel like especially in our generation, the world is messed up. We have more depressed suicidal teenagers then there has ever been and the numbers continue to increase. Also, basically every single girl I know is really insecure.

There are some people, like Cat, who seem to be completely confident in themselves, but they can still have a sliver of being unsure. At certain points you can see she has some insecurities. But who isn't at least a little insecure? Katie is just like me when it comes to being insecure.

I finally zone back into the world and just enjoy the peacefulness at this early in the morning. Most people in this town don't seem to be awake, so the streets are fairly empty. The street is also probably empty because people don't want to be caught in the rain.

I reach a more quiet part of town with cute little shops and I decide to stay in this area. There seem to be no people and no cars here, but the shops are still open. One of the flower shops is playing a radio station and the sound of its songs fill the empty street.

Just then the sky opens up and pours down on this town.

It is one of the most beautiful showers I have ever seen. The rain just looks so clear and it makes these noises when it hits the rooftop. I can see the rain hit the pavement and bounce back up a couple inches, and I can't help but smile. Sometimes the littliest things can make a person the most happy.

I freeze in this moment and just enjoy it's perfection.

The song on the radio changes to I'm Yours by Jason Mraz. I can't help but smile at the song choice. I then decide to do the only thing that I have ever been sure of to do. I begin to sing as I continue walking down the street.

Well, you done done me and you bet I felt it

I tried to be chill but you're so hot that I melted

I fell right through the cracks

Now I'm trying to get back

I look up from the pavement to see Tristan leaning against the wall smiling at me. "Stalker," I comment as I walk towards him, enjoying the feeling of the rain pouring down my face.

"Don't stop," he smiles at me. "I was quite enjoying the show from over here."

"Care to join the show?" I ask him with a new confidence that I only felt around Tristan. I felt this confidence on that bridge when I asked him to sing with me and on those steps of the bus where I took the bold move to kiss him.