Even If It Kills Me (One Direction and The Vamps Fan Fiction)

Chapter 47

Cat's POV

Emma left and I'm still not sure how to feel, in the back of my head I'm always worried about her. It's insanely scary knowing your best friend could be anywhere, doing anything, and could have even been kidnapped or something. But Emma is an adult, kind of, and she can take care of herself right? I mean she has her own apartment, she can be out on her own. I still wish she would answer my calls and texts, just so I can be sure that she's okay.

Brad's been there for me, but he can't bring Emma back or know if she's okay or not. Katie is taking it harder than me, she just listens to Emma's favorite songs and cries, not leaving her room. Poor thing, she's under so much stress and pressure with James and Niall and now Emma too. I guess I'm lucky that as far as I know, Brad is the only guy that sees something special in me. Still trying to figure out how I ended with Brad.

Apparently the fans are wondering the same thing, Brad and Cat trended on Twitter and it freaked me out. Under the trend was a bunch of pictures of Brad and I, and I guess you could say there are three different types of fan's opinions. The first were the mad and sad fans that posted crying and angry memes saying their disapproval that Brad has a girlfriend. Second are the logical fans that say that everyone should stop assuming and getting upset and just wait for Brad to confirm the relationship. And lastly, my personal favorite, are the fans that are shipping us. They gave us the ship name Cradley and went on my Instagram, taking pictures of me from there and putting them with pictures of Brad. They were really cute, and I may or may not have stalked some of their accounts...

I did all my Cradley research while sitting on a bed in the hotel room, waiting for Brad to wake up. Once he wakes up, he looks adorable as always. His hair is a mess of unruly curls and he gives me that stupid dopey smile that he always makes when he wakes up. He kisses me on the hand since he's laying down and I'm sitting up, then he checks his phone.

"Joe texted me a few minutes ago, he wants to talk to me." Brad informs me, getting up and throwing on a t-shirt.

"Okay." ,I agree.

"Be right back." Brad smiles and closes the door.

I was going to listen to music, but I couldn't find my headphones. I realized I didn't bring them in last night when we checked into the hotel. I put my hair up in a messy bun, and walk out to the bus. I just wore some shorts and a t-shirt to bed, so I looked good enough.

I walk into the back entrance of the tour bus and to the bunk area. I hear voices coming from the common area of the bus; Brad and Joe. I didn't realize they were in here, I ignored their conversation and looked for my headphones. I find them in the bunk I slept in and pick them up.

"So Brad, you and Cat, huh?" I overheard Joe say my name and I stopped in the aisle on my way out, curious.

"What about us?" Brad asks.

"You guys are dating?" Joe asks.

"Yeah, why?"

"I'm not sure you having a girlfriend is the best thing right now..."

"What's that supposed to mean?"

"You're a crowd pleaser, Brad. The girls aren't going to be too happy..."

"Ummm, I'm sorry to the girls then?"

"What I'm saying is you might want to consider breaking up with Cat, for the fans' sake. You don't want to loose fans..."

"That's absolutely not happening!" Brad says angrily.

I start to get sad and angry all at once, Joe was talking about me like I was going to ruin Brad's career! I run out of the bus, back into the hotel, tearing up.

I'm so confused right now, but I can't help but think Joe's right. Although some of the fans accepted Brad and I, most of them were upset. I would hate to loose Brad, but not as much as I would hate to see his career suffer because of someone as irrelevant as me. The fans have been here for Brad from the start while I just met him recently. There's no way I can let him choose me over his fans.

I grab my stuff out of his hotel room and take it into my own. I blast music to distract me from my feelings. Eventually, I think of a plan.

I'll avoid Brad for as long as I can until I tell him we can't work out. It will be hard for me to let him go, but it's for his own good. His music is just getting really popular, he can't ruin it on me.

Brad's POV

"What I'm saying is you might want to consider breaking up with Catherine, for the fans' sake. You don't want to loose fans..." Joe trials off.

I'm outraged. "That's absolutely not happening!!!" I tell him. "And that's not fair either! Tristan basically has a girlfriend and Conner and James go out on dates with girls!" I add.

"Tristan's 'girlfriend' isn't even here, and and the rest of the guys aren't the fan favorite."

"So I'm just expected to stay single forever?!?!"

"Not forever, just long enough to pull the fans in."

"Pull the fans in? That sounds sketchy!"

"You know what I mean, Brad. Your relationships are your choice, I just don't want you to say I didn't warn you if you loose fans."

"I'm not dumping Cat! She's lovely and perfect! And I can be myself around her!" I say, frustrated. "And I don't know what I'd do without her, I..." I pause. "I love her." I add with a sigh.

I realized that I did love Cat...I really did. I was able to tell Joe I did without even doubting myself, and that's how I knew for sure. You just know when you don't have to even think about it that's it's love. And I love Cat, everyone needs to know.

"I love her..." I say quietly, and then smile. "I love her," I say again, louder this time. "So much, Joe, you don't even understand." I grin huge as I think about her.

"And that's that." I say, leaving Joe alone on the bus.

I skip inside happily, ready to see my girl and tell her how much I love her.

Cat's POV

My phone buzzes with a text from Brad;

Hey, Joe doesn't need me anymore. Want to go out somewhere? ;)

Remember; avoid him until you break the news. I think to myself and reply to his message.

I'm still feeling sick, I went back to my room. :( I'll text you later, going to take a nap. Oh, and you don't need to come check on me, I'll be fine :)

I lie, I'm pretty much fine now, just had a one day cold thing.

Are you sure? I could bring you whatever you need. Brad insists.

Yes, I'm sure. Thanks though :)

How am I supposed to break up with the only guy that looks at me like I'm the best thing in the world?

I was trying to stay strong, but in the next moments, everything hit me. I could feel a strong flow of tears coming and I needed to let this out to someone. I run to go find Katie.

By: CatFriendly