Danger Signs // Demi Lovato // 4

39. Vices And Pity

My vision was blurry as I looked at Jay.

"Tell me he's lying," I whispered. We both knew the truth, but part of me still hoped it wasn't the case.

"I can't. I'm sorry." She dropped her head in shame.

"Why?" I asked. "Why would you do something so dumb?" I was furious that she would do something like that. And I knew I was only making the situation worse, but in the moment, I didn't care.

"I dont know, okay? They just... help. That guy you saw? He's the guy I get them from. A dollar a pill."

I could tell she wasn't proud of this, so I decided not to make her feel worse. "Please stop, for me, okay?"

She nodded, in tears again. She stepped into my arms and I hugged her tight.

I asked Maia and Demi if she could come over, but I didnt tell them it was because I had told Jay that she was going to tell me everything.

We were all completely quiet in the car. If it hadn't been for the sound of the tires on the road, the silence would have been eerie.

At home, I held Jay's hand as we made our way silently to my room.

I felt like everything I had known had been ripped away. I thought weed was the only thing, and finding out Paige and Jordan both used cocaine sent chills down my spine. They were horribly good at hiding it. And Jay and the Ritalin... I couldn't believe she used someone elses ADHD medication. I knew from experience with my birth mom that pills could be laced. Hell, Demi had it happen to her in 2018, before I met her and Maia.

Buying pills from unreliable sources was dangerous and Jay was lucky she hadn't gotten any that were laced. Unless she had, and she wasn't telling me.

Jay slipped her boots off and put them next to the bed. I followed suit, sitting next to her, but turning my body so I was facing her.

"So," I said. "What's really been going on that I don't know about?"