Lost in time G.D E.D

Part 6

A few months have passed and I can call Ethan and Grayson my friends. We hang out in classes and at lunch. I spend more time with Patrick and Hannah, secretly ploting to get them together.

Me and James spend quite a bit of time together in and out of school. He even bought me a scrunch's for my birthday.

I enjoy my last summer before school starts. Originally I believed that last summer would be my last but now I have to start senior year for the second time.

Todays the last day of junior year in 1998. I sit with James,Gray , Ethan, Pat, Arron, Chris, Zack and his girlfriend Devon, Hannah and Erik at lunch.

I give all of them my phone number and take theirs. I relax knowing I won't see my parents or the jocks for two months. Also I might be able to hang out with Ethan and Grayson a bit more. They seem happier and happier everyday. Both boys have community service and court ordered anger management classes since they robbed someone in January, I didn't know that happened so I couldn't talk them out of it. Either way, the classes do seem like they're working.

Ethan showed me a nice letter he sent to the owner of the van. I'm really proud of him.

"Bob really needs you guys to work more since schools over," Chris reminds the boys, Chris is also an employee at Pizzajacks.

"Well that's bull," Ethan crosses his arms. "It's fine E, let him know we will. We're both off tonight," Grayson nods.

"Maybe you guys can come to the drive in with Liv and I?" James asks them. Ethan head perks up but Grayson sets his hand on Ethan's shoulder and shakes his head.

"Oh, um actually we can't. Me and Grayson have shit to do," Ethan mutters.

"We appreciate the offer though White." Grayson nods. "Guess it's just us then," James turns and smiles at me.

We're going to go see Godzilla that just came out this month. "Like a date," Patrick teases me and pokes my shoulder.

"Not like a date," I push his shoulder. Ew, James is like 36 in my timeline. I can't date James here and then see him as an adult when I get home.

The bell rings and I head to math with Ethan.

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I get home to change for the night out with James. He's picking me up in an hour. I decide to sit and ask Death some questions. "Hey Death, Patrick said something to me and it made me think," I say as I click my pen to write deaths answers,

"He made a joke about me dating James and it reminded me he's my 36 year old teacher in the real world. My point is, when I get home will everyone remember me? Will they recognize me from 18 years before?"

I watch the board waiting for an answer. When I return to 2017 will my dad see me and say I look just like the girl he smashed cake on? Will John see me in class and ask why his best friend from school is his student? '

"N - O- I - W - i - l - l - S - W - I - T - C -H - M -E -M - O - R - I - E -S "

"What about Ethan and Grayson? They'll be adults then. They won't know me either?"

"N - o" I nod. So no matter how close I get to anyone in this timeline its futile, none of these friendships will last. Thats why I don't want to be closer, just to lose them all in the end.

"I'm just here for Ethan and Grayson,I can't get too close to anyone else. Especially James or Patrick, I can't develope anything with my teacher or my moms friend," I tell Death.

At least I don't know any of the others fates except for Hannah. I don't know Arron or Chris or anyone else in real life.

Unfortunately I can't save Hannah like I can save Ethan and Gray .

I can't warn Hannah that she'll have cancer in 11 years, or that she'll die in 13.

All I can do is help her live her life to the fullest. Maybe if I can get her and Patrick together sooner then Emily will be closer to my age.

I won't tease her and she'll even have more time with her mom. Maybe I could have even stolen the money from my parents that it would take to give her that operation that probably would have saved her life.

My parents are shitty people and I don't mind stealing from them after I've seen what they've done in school. James knocks on my door, I grab my wallet and keys and run out to him. We walk back to his car and head to the drive in. We watch the movie and part way through James turns my cheek so I look at him. "What's up buddy?" I cock my head.

He leans down and kisses me. "What the fuck".

I pull away gentle and look at him apologetic, seeing nothing except for the teacher I had for 8 months. "Sorry, no," I shake my head and he looks disappointed. He sadly nods and turns back to the movie and I do the same awkwardly. I am way not into that kinda relationship. If this was my proper timeline and I never knew John as an adult I would be cool dating him, I've never had a boyfriend before. But I can't do anything now.

"I love you James, but as a best friend," I hold his hand and smile at him.

He smiles sadly and keeps his eyes on the screen. At least he won't remember me like this.