Lost in time G.D E.D

59

February 14th 1998 

"Wow Oliva, you look...hot," Ethan stares at me in surprise. I smile nicely, missing when Grayson would call me beautiful instead. 

"Thanks E, you do too," I smile at him in a suit. 

"Oh you both look soo cute!" Lisa cries seeing us in the livingroom.

Sean walks in following his wife and he smiles at Ethan He's never seemed so happy with his son.

To be fair, every 1998 before now he only viewed Ethan as a thief.  However this time I stopped both boys from stealing from that van.

This time I made sure they never even drove passed that stupid fucking van.

They were with me the whole time. 

"Be responsible you two," Sean grins. I nearly facepalm and back away. 

"No promises," Ethan grins back and Lisa shakes her head disapproving. 

"I wonder if Grays there yet," I try to change the subject knowing he left without us and Ethan's grin disappears immediatly. 

"Lets just go," he nods and pulls me toward his car. We drive to the school in silence, man this is awkward. Dating Ethan isn't nearly as good as dating Grayson. 

I've been passing notes back and forth with Grayson through his locker and he returns them in a random locker i have a combination to thanks to an earlier timeline.

I wait until Grayson isn't around and I check the notes he leaves for me.  Since then everytime the three of us hang out thats all Grayson talks about.

But Ethan only talks about me or what we are up to so I guess it equals out. I miss how we used to be, how we used to hold intellectual conversations or just play Doom but now its all about romance and not anything else.

We barely even see any of our other friends thanks to Ethan only caring about what I'm doing or Grayson trying to list off every single girl in school and try to eliminate them as his lover. 

However, its slowly but surely working. Ethan and Grayson weren't arrested and Ethan isn't on those pills that messed him up and failed him from the Marines.

I'll endure the pointless talks and boring activities if it means everything will finally be over.  Unlike every other timeline I'm unable to dance with my other friends.

While I would usually be passed around by Nate, Patrick, Steve, Nick, Zack, James, and more. This time, Ethan doesn't let me go.

He keeps me by his side during the whole dance. I even try to dance with Grayson and he refuses.

I watch Grayson sit at a table alone, sadly looking around for his note girl. 

"This isn't fair to any of us, I wanted to have fun, they wanted to have fun, especially Grayson," I sigh as we leave. 

"You're my girlfriend, you shouldn't dance with anyone else," he shrugs. 

"I know, I'm sorry," I lay my head against the window. We drive to my apartment and I get out just saying bye. He frowns rolling down the window. 

"Liv? What's wrong?" 

"Nothing E, just go home," I sigh walking up to the front door. I hear the car stop and him get out, I roll my eyes annoyed as I unlock the door. Ethan runs up to my side. 

"No, seriously, whats wrong?" He asks. 

"Everything is about me. You can't go one day without me. All you talk about is me. You won't even drop it if Grayson asks. You took me away from our other friends. I'm just annoyed. I don't want the only thing for us to talk about is us. I wanna play videogames with Grayson, I wanna talk about your job or what we did at school, not about a date or something we did just moments before and decide it deserves an hour long discussion," I finally rant to him. 

"Sorry...just thought you liked me," he looks offended. 

"I do like you Ethan, you're my boyfriend, but you aren't the only person I want to talk to or about. Its the same issue with Grayson, I want to talk about shit besides his locker pal," 

"I'm sorry, alright?" He looks down,

"I'm sorry I ruined the dance for you,"

"You didn't ruin anything Ethan, it just needed to be said, it's late, we both need our sleep," I shake my head and walk inside. Thats another huge change I'm having a hard time getting over. 

In the last timeline I would almost always have one or both spending the night with me. Thanks to a relationship now I sleep sadly in an empty bed. 

I would give anything to go back to that timeline, it was all perfect except for the jealousy of Ethan.

And now I'm suffering the consequence.