Grey Paladin | Pidge x Reader (2018)

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(A/N) Chapter 31, wow!!

Pidge's POV
*A week or so after the wormhole jump*

I haven't slept much this week. I lay in in the small bed on the green lion and stare up at the ceiling. Maybe sleep will come? Doubt it.

I have no idea where she is. [Y/N]. We've all been worried, Keith and I the most. Everyone assumed she's probably dead. We learned that we can form Voltron without her, which I guess would be considered a good thing. But, I don't just want everyone to forget about her and move on. I don't want it to be like she was never even part of the team.

Coran said this long surviving on the lions limited oxygen... She probably died. I refuse to believe that. I know that she's not dead. It's the same thing I felt when everyone said that about Dad and Matt. I just knew that they weren't... And I was right.

We've got our coordinates set for Earth, after the castle was destroyed. We need the plans to build another, and my father's the only one with them. It'll take awhile though, since we're on low power.

Keith's been pretty distraught too. He's flying the black lion full time now. He hasn't really talked with anyone except Lance or Shiro on occasion. He thinks it's his fault she didn't make it through. I however, think it's mine.

Shiro's well... He's Shiro. He's upset about it too, he just doesn't want to bring it up at all. I know how he feels. I mean, she's his sister, and they've been really close since they were young.

The whole crew just seems distant and gloomy now that she's gone. Even Romelle and Krolia are upset, and they've probably spoken once.

It's weird without her here. She's the glue that holds us all together.

Your POV

We managed to contact Matt a few days ago, he informed us that no one has heard from Voltron, no one.

My heart hurts. My brain feels foggy. I don't even want to get out of bed anymore, but I do, in order to help out at the Garrison.

I had a mental breakdown in my room, after I heard what Matt had said. Adam had come to check on me and saw how much of a fucking wreck I was. I finally told him about Katie and I, and how much it hurt that I don't know where she is, or if she's even alive. And how my brother and best friends being missing also added to my endless stress.

It's currently 7am, I lay in the bed in my hospital room that I still have to stay in. The casts on my arm and ankle have been driving me insane. The light entering my dull room from the window makes me want to scream. The brightness, compared to my dull and gloomy mood is foreign.

Small shadows dance across the room, as I lay there, wishing my circumstances were completely different.

*Knock*

"Hmmmm?" I mumble. The door opens to reveal a Garrison nurse.

"Big day." She says. I nod, sitting up. My face, wet from the tears that I quickly wipe away in attempt to hide the fact that they ever existed.

"Sleep well?" She asks, checking over her clipboard.

"Yeah." I lie. I haven't sleepy bit.

"Great." She smiles, helping me up. "You get the casts off, and get released today." 

"R- Really?" I ask.

She nods.

I get dressed quickly, and the nurse pushes my wheelchair out of the room and into another. Finally. I've felt so helpless in this, not being able to do things myself, needing assistance in everything I do. It's been agonizing.