Blue Roses

Chapter thirty two

Chapter song~ Because of you by Kelly Clarkson

After what seems like an eternity, I muster up enough emotional strength to pull myself together and go find Mark. I mentally kick myself for being so weak and letting myself be so vulnerable, I hate myself sometimes.

Every once in awhile, I forget that the world is cruel, and in that split second, I let someone or something in. This is what I get for forgetting, I deserve this don't I? How could I be so naive, a werewolf, I mean come on, I thought I knew better than that. The only defense I could offer myself is that I thought he would be different.

Now I feel like my non-beating heart has been shattered into a thousand little pieces. Between Ash, and Mark, a new school in a new freaking country, I wish I could just go home to my family, my old friends, my pets, especially my horse.... Its official, I'm homesick, and pathetic.

With a sigh, I take off, running through the woods soundlessly looking for my lost friend. Do I even want to find him? Is it really worth it?

I find myself at the waterfall and I sit on a shaded rock hugging my knees to my chest. I rest my chin on my knees and let the sounds of the crystal rushing water sooth my nerves like pouring water over hot coals. I jump when a familiar voice sounds from behind me without warning.

"It's beautiful isn't it?"

"It is..."

I can hear him walk a few steps forwards hesitantly before sitting next to me, I don't look over. I ask,

"How'd you find me?"

"I knew you'd come here... Beautiful people are attracted to beautiful places."

I sigh softly and wonder what the hell I had gotten myself into. After a few moments of lingering silence, he speaks again.

"I bet you have alot of questions for me."

"Damn right I do."

"Then you ought to start asking, we have limited time."

"What do you mean? Your leaving again aren't you?"

"I dont really have a choice, your boyfriend made it pretty clear I needed to get gone."

I hiss irritated, "He isn't my boyfriend asshole, don't assume things you know nothing about."

"Oh, so your just stringing him along just like you did to me eh?"

I've had enough of his shit already, I snap and stand, he quickly does the same. I get in his face pissed off while he looks amused down at me.

"Dont you fucking dare. Im not stringing anyone along. I didnt string you along, we were children you bastard, anyways you could have done something about it if you liked me oh so much Just TO LEAVE ME FOR EIGHT GOD DAMN YEARS WITHOUT A SINGLE WORD! DO YOU KNOW HOW LONG I WAITED FOR YOU TO COME BACK? MONTHS MARK, GOD DAMN MONTHS! BECAUSE OF YOU I NEVER WANTED TO MAKE OTHER FRIENDS, I WAS STILL WAITING FOR YOU! AND YOU NEVER FUCKING CAME DID YOU? I SACRIFICED EVERYTHING FOR YOU AND YOU NEVER ONCE TRIED TO LET ME KNOW YOU WERE STILL ALIVE! I PUSHED EVERYONE AWAY BECAUSE I WAS AFRAID OF LOSING THEM LIKE I LOST YOU!"

I had risen up on my toes to get in his face as much as I was able to. I'm fuming mad, and he didnt look as amused as before. He has a stony, cold expression when I back up a step breathing hard trying to contain the anger and pain I've stored over time inside me. He whispers,

"Its not like I wanted to leave you, I didnt have a choice, they were going to kill you, I was trying to save you...I thought they would follow me..."

I soften my voice taking out the edge matching his soft tone.

"And look where it got us, I'm still dead either way.... A vampire and a hunter, ironic isn't it...."

He looks pained, and I feel bad for being so harsh, but I can't help how I feel. He looks me straight in the eyes, and says,

"Jade, I am so, so sorry for all of this. For leaving you when I should have stayed with you that day, for not trying harder to find you, for believing the other hunters when they said you were dead, for trying to kill you, for not being here with you for the last eight years, for everything... But know that there was never a day that passed that I didn't think of you at least once, whether I saw kids playing in the snow, or your favorite color, anything that reminded me of you, from music to animals, and even the moon and stars in the nighttime sky or on occasion when I would see a blue rose.... I feel like I've been missing a piece for years, and now, its finally back and I'm whole again....."

He wraps me in a tight hug and doesnt like me go until I hug him back. When he pulls away and looks down at me, I see my tears and internal conflict reflecting in his eyes. We laugh at each other and I feel light for the first time in a few days. He pulls me into another hug when I hear another familiar, threatening voice behind us.

"Let. Her. Go."

He stiffens agenst me protectively as he's threatened again,

"I'll say it one more time... Let. Her. Go. Or I will kill you right where you stand."

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Short chapter I know, sorry, but now its up to you to decide what happens next... I'll leave you and your imagination to it ;) I wanted to thank everyone who continue to read this book and I appreciate it so much! I never thought I'd get this far. Remember to comment vote and share!! love you guys :)