Lapidot: I will always choose you (Human Au)

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Lapis’ POV
The ride home was long and silent… me and Jasper’s hands are intertwined but all I can feel is shame… of course I didn't want to say what I said to her but what else could I have done to avoid Peri getting hurt? Every second I'm further away from her my heart breaks, I knew I shouldn't have slept over I knew I would just fall further in love with that little nerd. I try to contain my giggle as I remember her alien boxers what I wouldn't do see what's un-
“Lapis!” Jasper shouted
“Huh?”
“I've been calling you, who were you with last night” I let a loud sigh and rolled my eyes.
“No one important Jasper, I swear just a friend”
“Do I know him?” he tightened his grip on the steering wheel… he's getting pissed off.
“Yes you know her”
“Was it the one I caught you with at the BD”
A flashback of Peridot’s face when I said those hudious lies, I won't even be mad if she never talked to me every again, I wouldn't talk to me of I was her. How could I choose Jasper when I would want to be with you. I will always choose you my little dork.

Peridot’s POV
I immediately went home I didn't even make it to my bed, once I closed the door I leaned my back against it and slide down as tears streamed down my cheek. I miss Lapis… I need her, I can't survive without her… but what she said it felt exactly like when my mother and father died… I lost a piece of myself as soon as she left. I do not have the strength to get up so I just cry on the floor for what seems like hours, just image after image of me and Lapis coming in and out my mind. I can't even image how will I be able to control myself when I see her Monday, it's not like I could even avoid ever forever.

Hours went by and now the sun had gone down and it's a same such a beautiful day had to go with such an ugly memory. My weak knees manage to lift me up and slowly walk to the kitchen, I look threw the drawers for a sharp knife… what's the point of living anymore… everyone hates me and now the one person I thought loved me even after all this time is gone, it just seems so pointless now.

TRIGGER WARNING: SELF HARM

I grab the blade and slowly start cutting my wrist the fist five or six times I winced at the pain but eventually I just gritted my teeth enduring the pain. I don't know how many I've done but it's a lot, enough to make my vision so blur…. I can't feel anything. I guess this is it… goodbye lapis… I hope you miss me… wish you kiss me so you know I worship you (if you get that reference I love you). I'll see you soon mom and dad.

Robinoid 24’s POV
Oh damn… better call 911 I guess