Lapidot: I will always choose you (Human Au)

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A week later
Lapis POV
7 days 3 hours and 42 minutes ago was the last time I saw Peridot, I tried asking around but no one has even heard of her then I realized I was her only friend and I hurt her. I’ve been crying myself to sleep every night after Jasper leaves my house… how could I be so heartless and just leave her, I didn’t even text her an explanation. I try not to let my emotions show especially today, I have to watch Steven today… I can do this it’s just 4 hours.

    “LAPIS!” the young teenage curly head boy ran up and jumped on me.
“Hey Steven” I giggled.
    “Are you ready?” he asked, I nodded and made my way to the pier

Today is such a beautiful, I always loved the pier I used to come here after school everyday and draw whether it was Mr.Smiley running between stands and rides or “the cool kids” laughing or playing around or if it’s empty I paint the sky line one of my favorite things to draw. It makes me smile remembering those late summer nights under the stars with sand in my hair and in between my toes, and the sounds of the waves crashing against the sand.
    “Lapis” Steven called
“Yeah buddy”
    “You seem… off is everything okay?”
I am trying to keep my composure and not cry I can’t… I need to be strong but I can’t stop my lip from quivering. I guess he noticed and wrapped his tiny chubby arms around me, I needed this… but I know I don’t need a hug…. I need Peridot.
“Peridot….” I mumble into his fluffy hair.
    “Peridot?” he asked as he backed up and looked me in the eyes, I could tell he knows what happened but he also knows it’s my fault.
“Have you seen her?” I ask trying not to be scared of the answer.
    “Peridot is in the hospital, my mom is her nurse. She said One of her inventions called 9-1-1 after a um…”
“After what? Tell me please”
    “She tried to commit suicide” I can’t see but I feel pale… my stomach dropped… everything went dark it felt like I was spiralling down faster and faster. She tried killing herself because of me and what I said.
“It’s my fault…” my head hung low as tears filled my eyes.
    “Don’t say that Lapis, you didn’t know” he held me tight… he’s the only thing keeping me grounded. Thank you Steven you have no idea what you do for me…
“Can we do something real quick” I ask softly, he nods and takes my hand.

    We arrive at Peridot’s house, I know she’s not home… but I feel like I should water her plants, do her laundry, keep it clean, and clean up her… blood.
    “Are you sure Lapis?”
“Yeah, it’s the least I can do” I smile weakly hoping he believes it, but I know he does. The door was unlocked surprisingly, I turn on the light, I started walking around don’t know where I was going but I found myself in the kitchen… a blood stained knife in a pool of blood on the white floor, I was shocked… I wasn’t expecting to feel this much pain in my chest it became hard to even stand or breathe something so simple can be so complex when you face your demons.
    “I’ll grab a mop” he said snapping me out of my thoughts again. I slowly made my way to the puddle of blood swallowing my guilt along the way, I bend down and pick up the knife…  the sins that this knife hold are heavy. I can imagine Peridot on the floor… crying because of me. It is all my fault… it’s my fault.
   
    The cleaning went by fast, there wasn’t much that needed cleaning, Peridot was a very clean person… no, she is a very clean person. The last place to clean was her room, when I opened the door I was hit with an ocean of emotions, remembering the last time I was in here with her. I want her to hold me again, I need to feel her touch, see her smile, smell her. I need you Peridot… if you come back I promise I’ll choose you. I rehearse possibilities run through my head if I ever see her again as I make her bed and throw away her soda bottles. Please come back to me Peridot.

Robinoid 24’s POV
Measurements…. Measurements… Measurements… so many measurements… mmm… measurements.

Peridot POV
Beep… Beep… Beep… Beep…. I hate the fucking monator mocking me sounding like a laugh… it’s a painful reminder that I failed. Everything is a bright white and it makes me sick and itchy even though it reminds me of home it’s not it’s an ugly white… Stupid pupil, it has to take everything in (if you get that reference I love you). The only thing I want to see is Lapis even if she doesn’t want to see me. I need her.

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A/N: please read
Hey everyone, for the lack of posting I thought I give you all an extra chapter. And again I'm sorry for not posting I just have a lot of things going on plus SAT's so bare with me and my wacky scheduled. But to have a little fun while writing these chapters I decided to throw in a refrance or two in each one starting with this one, and who ever guess the correct source will get a shout out in the next chapter! Idk I thought it was a good idea. But Anyway have fun reading and thank you for all the comments and votes you guys are the best 💙💚💙💚💙💚

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