Lapidot: I will always choose you (Human Au)

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Peridot POV
It's been a tough three months after me and Lapis' break up... and my accident. If it weren't for Amethyst I don't know what would have happened, she came to the hospital everyday and spent over 5 hours everyday with me. When I was released we spent even more time together, it was inevitable that we would end up together. She was so happy that she got into the college that I'm in, that it's good to see a familiar face. I remember our first kiss it was at a party she through, I feel like she had set it all up just to kiss me. We played spin the bottle with 15 other people, usually people would say God had made Amethyst spin the bottle onto me but I don't believe in God. No god would have put my in the situation that I was in three months ago... there's not a day that goes by that I don't miss Lapis but Amethyst she's great, she understands me in a way I don't think Lapis every could. Okay that was a lie but Amethyst makes me happy, and I don't have to worry about Jasper kicking my butt if we go out. She isn't like Lapis at all and I think that's why I'm with her, I know if Lapis were to see me now she would be so disappointed. I dropped everything I used to believe in or do I'm dirty, I lie, I drink, and worst of all... I cheated.

Lapis POV
Pearl is great. She is. She takes care of me, knows my triggers, knows what to do with me when I have a panic attack. She was the first person I called after me and Peridot broke up, completely my fault... that night only got worse. Pearl came over, Jasper freaked out, hit me lucky Pearl called 9-1-1 and he got arrested, but the worst thing ever was that Jasper was sleeping with Pearl. I should have hated her but I didn't I felt bad, being in the situation with him. We were there for each other and I guess that's how we got together, there was no asking the other person out we just happened. Our relationship is like a flower blooming from a place where no live exists (Like the kindergarden!), something beautiful came out of the mess. Although if I am being honest, I can't help but think about Peridot, I wonder how she is, who's she with, if she's self harming, if she's eating right... every day it gets harder not to call of even text her. I just hope she's happy, who am I kidding I bet she's over the moon going to a nice fancy college with people who are just as smart as her. I hope she knows I miss her, and I hope that she misses me... just a little because I'm... I'm lost without her. Maybe Pearl is my life raft to help me ashore because I am lost at sea of suffering without Peridot.