Lapidot: I will always choose you (Human Au)

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                    One Week Later
Lapis POV
Skype date 26, 1:20 p.m.
“You look beautiful” a pixelated version of her says to me through the privacy of my headphones.
    “I don’t feel like it” which is true, I forgot how depend it I was on Peridot. Whether it was school or home issues I could always go to her and I knew it would be better in just a fe mountain dew bottles. But I don’t tell her this I know she already is struggling fitting in since she’s the youngest one there (and the smallest) she doesn’t need the worry of my worries.
    “You always look beautiful, even when you don’t feel like it,” I blush “ I wish I was there.”
    “I wish you were here too” true “but it’s fine” lie, I learn something about myself that I didn’t know before… I really hate lying to Peridot.
    “I know you say that but if you are missing me as much as I miss you, you must be going crazy” she tries to laugh but it’s forced, her composure seems forced like she’s trying to make me believe something that’s not true. She doesn’t look any better than she did the day she left, maybe any worse, the computer does a horrible job of displaying her features. I wish she was still here for me to run my fingers through her hair, I almost start crying realizing how much I actually miss her.
    “Peri?...” I sound a type of low I’ve never reached, I hated it”
    “Yes Lappy” even something that would normally give me strength only weakens me.
    “I… I need help” the look on her face clearly showed fear and worry despite lag caused by the shitty wifi.
    “With what? What’s wrong baby”
    “My father told me, I have two choices either get back with Jasper or move out… and I don’t know what to do.”
    “Well you can’t get back together with him”
    “I know… but I have nowhere to go Peri, you know I don’t have any family besides my mother and father.”
    “What about your sister Aquamarine?”
    “She’s in Hong Kong trying to find herself”
    “My house, you can live there”
    “Peridot I can’t do that…”
    “I don’t mind it, I’d actually prefer it”
    “No I can’t do it because… it  would only remind me how much I miss you and how you’re gone.”
    “Think about it… please, just don’t get back with Jasper.” I wish I can hold her hand and kiss her.
    “I promise”
    “Good, now I hate to cut this short but I have to go I got class in half and hour.”
    “I love you Peri”
    “I love you too Lappy” she hangs up before I could take another breath. I close my eyes, wishing I could turn back time to the first time we met and I’d do it better this time… this time I’d choose you....

But this time I didn’t, I’m sorry Peridot. I can feel his hands on my shoulders so close to my neck, so close to death. His lips on my neck, his main covering my face and chest, as his smell almost killed me.
    “Did you do it? Did you break up with her?”
    “Yes… I’m yours once again….” his prisoner, I’m sorry Peridot but I have no control when you aren’t around when you left so did all my strength and self confidence. But like I said it hurts me to be without you, Jasper isn’t something I’d go back to like some sort of a drug I got addicted to, he isn’t even a replacement no one can replace you… I swear. Jasper is my distraction from you… you are the drug I got addicted to, I can’t survive four years without you Peri and I won’t. Even if it means getting hooked on another drug that can and will kill me one day, maybe soon.