Lapidot: I will always choose you (Human Au)

17

A Month Later
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apis POV
I took a deep breath as I looked in the mirror, I’m nervous today is the first day of my new school it’s not in Beach city and I haven’t told Peridot that the only other school, that will make colleges look at me is in Emerald City which is in a whole other state. The uniform is snug, it makes me uncomfortable. I walk down stairs to an empty kitchen, my dad is probably still asleep as usual, I try and stay quiet while grabbing a banana. I go outside to be created by Peridot and her jeep.
    “Hey Lazuli” she said kissing my cheek.
“Hey” I’m trying to hide the guilt in my voice but it is like a bubble in my throat I can’t swallow.
    “Are you okay?” she reaches for my  hand and I freeze, I look in her eyes I can see she’s worry and I cannot find the words to tell her everything is fine. I put my head down so I can stop the overwhelming feeling like this will hurt her more than it’s hurting me. I take a deep breath trying to calm the thoughts in my head that she’s going to leave me.
“Peridot the new school I am going to… it makes it a lot hard for me to see you… the only time will probably be on the weekend and I have work on the weekend so it will be even harder for us to see each other” my voice cracked a bit trying to manage out the heart breaking words. She looked at me for a second and did not say a single word, the silence is giving my spine chills.
    “It’s okay Lappy” she grabs my hand and laces our fingers together “wherever you are I promise we will find away to be together, no matter what city, no matter what school, no matter what or where you are. We are strong enough to get through anything Lappy, I love you” she said so calming and sure that our future is already secured it made me actually believe all of her words.
    I opened the car door where a chocolate donut and iced coffee rest in my seat, I smile and pick them up and closes the car door. Peridot always gets me breakfast from the big donut or if I’m lucky and she wakes up early she’ll make me breakfast. Being alone for so long made her a good cook, she had told me what happened with her parents it’s truly sad Peridot has to spend all of her days and nights alone in her house alone so I go over there as much as I can. We usually watch movies, play board games, she sometimes tries to teach me to cook but I’m useless in the kitchen, we go out to the pier and play games, and my favorite part is when we are in her room laying on her bed as she reads a book to me I love listening to her voice. Things between are us are simple and easy unlike when I was will Jasper, he actually moved away, to where I don’t know but we are glad. Peridot said I should still move schools just in case, my dad agreed that I should move different schools not because of Jasper he actually liked him. He wanted me to change schools because of Peridot but he says it’s to give me a brighter future, I know he hates I’m with Peridot now I can hear it in his voice when he sees us around the house. Peridot doesn't know my father hates her, I know it will just upset her. I wish I could reassure her like she does with me, I wish I can do half the things Peridot does for me she always makes sure I'm okay and happy when I don't even know what to say when she's upset when parents are brought up. She says not to worry but how can I not when I see the scars on her wrist, I… I just want to help her the way she helps me it's just harder for me no one has ever shown me the type of love Peri gives me. She is truly a gem, the way she loves is so innocent and pure even though most of her life has been dark. Peridot you are truly one of a kind, and that's what I love about you.

Peridot POV:
The drive was filled with a comfortable silence that I believe everyone longs for in a relationship, the comfort we feel together is what makes me happy conversations carried out in the wind and Lapis’ light sewing and slurping of her coffee. It is relaxing to have her with me even though I’m driving her further and further away from me, but I am okay with it because she’ll be happy at her new school. Of course I will miss her and I know she will miss me too but I have to trust that this is for the best and maybe one day we will go to college together and spend everyday together. Ever since my parents death I have never been close with anyone not the way I am with Lapis, she makes me happier than anyone in my entire life. I truly love her and everything she does, I am convinced she's the one for me, she is everything I never knew I wanted I know it’s cliche but it’s true.