Lapidot: I will always choose you (Human Au)

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Peridot POV
Another day staring at the celing with Lapis’ ringtone being played in the background, I haven’t talked to Lapis in two days since I talked to the school board. I can’t talk to her knowing I’m thinking of leaving her, we have gotten so close and now I’m just leaving. I feel sick to my stomach I can’t imagine a world without Lapis, I can’t even imagine going to college so young leaving Lapis in the dust.

Lapis POV
You going to ignore me and think im not going to show up at your house, I knocked on the door. I’m not even angry, I’m worried what is she hurt herself again and I’m too late. One of the Robinoids had open the door and looked up at me, creeping me the heck out, I had never got used to these little robot balls. I run up the stairs as fast as I can and barge into Peridot’s room,  she was at the edge of the bed holding a piece of paper and for some reason all my anger was gone and is replaced with uneasiness.
    “You better explain yourself” I try and find some confidence in my voice, but as I am standing here my knees feel weak, seeing her doesn’t make me upset it just reminds me how much I really missed her.
    “Lapis…” Peridot said softly but I could hear the brokenness in her voice that it pierced my heart.
    “W-why didn’t you answer any of my calls… or text messages… don’t you get that I was worried about you, I thought something bad happened to you,” my voice cracked at the end remembering the amount of blood from the last attempt “don’t you get that you should have at least told me you were going to ghost me for two whole days… I really missed you damn it.”
    “Lapis… just listen… I didn’t mean to ghost you it was just hard to face you, something came up and it’s a really hard decision to make” she isn’t even looking at me she’s looking at the ground, and it’s making me feel really scared, I could barely make my legs move over to her.
    “Peridot, whatever it is and can’t be as bad as you think” I sit down next to her and hold her hand that isn’t clenching on to the paper.

Peridot’s POV
    “I wanted to tell you the day it happened but I felt like I didn’t deserve to see you after even considering it” hot tears fall from my eyes to my chin, it’s a lot harder than I would have ever imagined.
    “Considered what” her grip on my hand tightened slightly as I took a deep breathe.
    “I’m graduating early… and I was offered a scholarship at my dream school… across the country” I waited for her response, I don’t know what’s killing me more the silence or feeling her grip on me slowly disappear.
    “You better take the offer Peridot, you’d be an idiot if you would even consider turning that opportunity down” I look up at her for the first time since she got here and I can see her lower lip tremble a little.
    “Lapis I can’t just leave you for four years.”
    “And you won’t look I’m graduating next year and I’ll come and visit you, we can make this work… I… I can’t lose you so even if I have to freeze hell I will do it because I love you Peridot and if that means letting you go then I’ll do it.”
    “So… are we breaking up?” saying those words make my stomach turn, my chest tighten, and my eyes teary.
    “Don’t think of this as a breakup just a little pause until we can see each other again” she grabs my hand again, and looked into my eyes as if she’s seen the future and knows that we will be okay.
    “I love you”
    “I love you too” Lapis leans in slowly and gently kisses my lips as I kiss back, this kiss is more than a kiss it is the seal of our promise and I vow to keep that promise… no matter what.