Lapidot: I will always choose you (Human Au)

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Lapis POV
I dropped Steven off at his house around 9 o’clock, I knew I had to go home but I can’t find the courage to face my bed. I should go back to Peridot’s house… finish up cleaning, yeah I know there isn’t anything else I needed to clean but I just need to be there.

    I crawl on her couch with the blanket she offered me the last time I was here. The house seems so quiet, I can’t stand it… she has to go through this every night… doesn’t she? Where are her parents or sibling I know she has a brother with a funny name… where are they?... I’m sorry Peridot.

Peridot POV
Beep… Beep… Beep… Beep… that sound has been troubling me for the past week, I haven’t slept… I need my bed in my house. I don’t feel safe here I feel like I’m going crazy… luckily I will get out tomorrow and go back to what’s left of my miserable life. I heard a light knock on the door and a curly head kid popped into my room.
“Hey Peridot” Steven said as I sit up.
    “Hey buddy”
“I just wanted you to know I went to your house with a friend to clean and water your plants, I think she’s still there”
    “How did you even get in my house?!”
“You leave the key under the mat”
    “Ugh, who was it?”
“Huh”
    “Who did you bring to my house”
“Lapis Lazuli, do you know her”
    “LAPIS WAS IN MY HOUSE!” panic, happiness, thrill,and nervousness went through my body. Shit her and Steven saw… the blood… my blood.
“Yeah I know I’m sorry I know you don’t like people at your house but she wanted to clean up and water your plants.” oh Lapis…
    “Wait you said she’s still there?”
“Yeah, she just had a few things left to clean and I told her to put the key back under the mat so it should be fine”
    “I need to get out of here” I ripped off the wires and the machines went crazy but I didn’t care I need to talk to her, I jumped off the bed and past the kid out the door, I just ran and ran faster than I ever could before I didn’t know who was behind me I just need to get to my house. I need to get to Lapis, I don’t care if she’s just going to leave me or hurt me I need her more than I need doctors and nurses.

Lapis POV
I couldn’t sleep… something is keeping me up, maybe the guilt? I put her in a position on where I knew she would get her… but to me the risk was worth it to have her for one day… for one night… for a moment like how we used to be. I need her more than I need the air in my lungs.

    Seconds turned to minutes… minutes turns to hours and now it’s 3 in the morning. I can’t sleep without her I won’t do it my body will not let me to do anything.
“BUZZ” I quickly picked up my phone hoping it was Peridot, but I knew it wasn’t.
    “Hello” I deadpan.
“Where are you?” Jasper’s voice is rougher and raspier than usual which means he is shit faced.
    “I’m at home” I imagine this grand white house to be mine… but not just mine Peridot too.
“No you’re not I’m in your room, now where are you” his voice darkened as if his anger had sobered him up enough to tell I’m trying to trick him.
    “Please just not tonight… I don’t feel well”
“Just tell me where you are” I hang up almost immediately, I couldn’t talk to him not when he’s like that… not when I’m like this. I hate feeling alone… and I never realised how alone I really was until I lost her… I have no one, not Jasper or my parents or friends… I’m all alone. Tears gently made it’s path down my cheek to the floor, I’m not strong… I am nothing… I am alone.

    All of a sudden the door burst open with Peridot in the doorway with her little chest rapidly going up and down. I jump up from the couch and start sprinting to her, I quickly wrapped my arms around her skinny body, I try to take in the sent of mountain dew and doritos she usually has but she smelt like a hospital.
    “I missed you” I faintly say, I do not raise my voice to it’s normal volume because it looks like she is to fragile to even hand a light breeze.
“I missed you too” I could tell she’s smiling, I am too.