UNCERTAINTY

15

Deanna's

Where on a 10th winning streak, hindi na kami natalo after ng first game namin.

We where praise by many, still criticize by those who know it all kind of idiots and being hated by the bashers.

Marami ang natuwa sakin when I earned POG twice in a row. Nabawasan yung mga haters ko.

Pero lahat ng praise and magagandang salita nila napalitan ng mga galit, mura, pangungutya at mga masasakit na salita ng  talunin kami ulit ng La Salle ng straight set.

It takes only one game to demoralized us by our rival team..

Twitters hit me like a storm. Sobrang daming hate tweets,may mga threats na din akong natatanggap.

Dahil sa last game namin ang La Salle bago ang holy week mukhang medyo matagal na pangungutya ang matatanggap namin sa social media kaya nag decide ako  na magdeactivate muna it was my decision.

I leave Jema a message about my plan para hindi siya magtaka na wala na ako sa social media.

Hindi muna ako nakipagkita sakanya dahil sa ang lala ng mga natatanggap kung salita ayaw ko siya madamay.

Gustuhin ko man makita siya hindi ko magawa may training parin kasi kami samantalang siya nag take na muna ng rest at hindi na muna sumama samin sa training after holiday ang balik niya.

Isa pa si Ponggay kasi she needed me.

Nabastos at nabash siya sa social media so I needed to be there for her.

She didn't want me to leave her side she's been so sad and down kaya gustuhin ko man na makita siya ay di ko magawa.

Pero as the days past sobrang namimiss ko na siya.

I want to see her.

I need to see her.

I'm badly want to see her.

Gusto ko siya ang magcomfort sakin kahit ilang days na ang nakalipas nung pagkatalo namin at marami na ang nagpaabot ng comfort at support sakin hindi yun enough.

Kasi hindi naman sakanila ang gusto kung comfort and Support kundi yung kay Jema.

I can feel it.

The more I think about her.

The obsessed I am of her attention.

One night I talk to her on phone.

"Asan ka?" I asked

"Sa condo po. Why?"

"I want to see you to be a honest I'm missing you so much."

"Deanna." She warned me

"Pero that's the truth, I can't stop my self from falling for you." I been very honest on her about my feelings for her.

Kahit na anong pigil ko it's getting stronger everyday.

Na kahit na walang kasiguradun at handa ako.

Handa akong mahalin siya sa kahit anong gusto niyang paraan.

I'm not thinking how wrong it will be or hard it will be.

I'm up for the challenge.

I'm ready to love her what ever it takes.

During our call I told her that I want to see her.

"Gusto kitang makita Jema." I said.

"Hindi pwede Deanna gabi na."