UNCERTAINTY

9

Deanna's

"Follow muna, sina Ate Bei and Ate Mads nga nakafollow na eh. Kaya mo yan."

I'm currently talking to myself as I try yo follow Jema on social media.

Matagal ko na siya gusto ifollow pero ayaw ko na mauna kasi baka ano isipin nila kaya naman ng makita ko na nakafollow na sakanya yung ibang teammates ko nagpasya ako na ifollow na din siya.

Pero ang hirap I don't know why, pero kinakabahan ako.

Umupo ako sa kama at huminga ng malalim.

"Just follow her, nayaya mo nga siya na magdinner last sunday,nakapagpicture ka with her thanks to my good friend Pongs at naihatid ka niya sa dorm tapos ikiclick mo lang yan hindi mo magawa."

Haaay.

Torpe ka self.

Wait Torpe? Magkaibigan lang naman kami ha. Kung ano ano iniisip mo Wong.

After an hour negotiating with myself I managed to follow her on Insta and Twitter.

I'm already on the gym with some of my teammates nauna kami kasi yung iba may class pa.

When I checked my phone napasigaw ako.

"Aaahh!yes!"

Then I realized na nakakahiya pala ang ginawa ko.

Pongs, Ate Bei and Ate Mads are eyeing me.

"What's happening to you Deanna?" Ate Mads asked.

"Nothing sorry."

Umupo ako ulit but I can't hide my smile I checked it again totoo nga.

She followed me back.

After our training I checked it again.

Hindi kasi talaga ako makapaniwala.

Papunta ako sa class ko the naisip ko ma imsg siya.

"Thanks sa follow back lodi."

I erase it too presko.

"Thanks sa follow back. Means a lot to me."

I erase it again to clingy shet.

"Thanks sa follow back take care always."

I erase it again too sweet.

"Hoy makinig ka nga sa class panay phone mo." Pongs said

"Whatever Pongs."

Wag ko na nga lang imsg. Nakakahiya..

I'm excited to see her on our training this afternoon antagal matapos ng class ko naiinip na ako.

Kahit naman kasi hindi kami naguusap sa training kasi she's assign with the rookies satisfied na ko sa mga ngitian at Hi and Hello namin.

Masaya na ko doon.

Pagkarating namin sa gym the first time I did is find her.

Pero wala siya we proceed on our training with out her nahihiya naman ako magtanong bakit wala siya.

My energy went down I thought I can see her today pero hindi pala.

Umupo sa tabi ko si Kapitana during our break.

"Oh anong nangyari sayo? Ok ka lang?"

Tumango ako.

I'm not feeling good, feeling ko something is missing on my day.

After training niyaya ako nila Pongs to attend our former Coach, Coach Thai's farewell party ayaw ko sana sumama pero in respect to Coach Thai I decided na sumama plus andun sina Ate Jia and Ate Ly makikita ko ulit sila.