UNCERTAINTY

23

Jema's

I'm on my last wine ng pumasok ang isa sa mga pinagkakatiwalaan kung kaibigan.

"Mam I heard she's back. She's back to play Volleyball"

Napahinto ako sa paginom sa narinig ko.

Napangiti ako.

"Gawin mo ang lahat para makapagguess siya sa show ko and make sure wala siyang choice kundi pumunta."

"Yes Jem."

"Ano pa bang alam mo bakit siya bumalik?"

"A source said kinuha siyang setter ng Creamline Coolsmashers ng Rebisco to play on upcoming league in PVL,Jem."

"Rebisco huh."

"Book me an appointment sa Rebisco."

"Yes Jem."

"Thank you Chona."

"Sana naman this time maging masaya kana Jem, please don't be hard on yourself."

Pag ka alis niya pinagpatuloy ko na yung pag inum ko.

A year have past and it changed me a lot.

Or should I say I learned to cope.

Pag pala pinakita mo sa kanila na mahina ka aapakan ka nila. So I did what I have to do.

I cope with the chaos, sabi nga nila the more you want to changed it the more it's hard to adapt on that change.

So I changed my approach and go along it.

Kailangan ko labanan ng patas yung mga tao na ginagawa ang lahat para  sirain ako.

What you want is what you get ika nga nila.

Hindi ka dapat tatahitahimik pag may naninira sayo kasi lalo ka nilang sisiraan.

Sobra akong naging maingat na baka ganito baka ganyan sa career ko mali pala yun and it causes me the most important person in my life to leave.

Ngayon I don't care what will you throw on me,if you throw me a rock I will throw it back to you.

I will make sure that everyone will pay on what they did.

At sisimulan ko sayo.

Ponggay Gaston.

I know what you did at lintik lang ang walang ganti.

I'm on my way for a shooting with the Creamline iba to sa magiging guess show nila sa fitness show ko.

Kinakabahan ako this is the first time I'm seeing her again after nung doon sa tagpuan.

"Excited ka na bang makita ako Deanna?"

I thought.

Pag pasok ko everything is ready  na inayusan lang ako then start na kami magshoot.

Isa isa na silang tinawag.

Noong tinawag siya ng kasama ko parang huminto ng ilang oras ang lahat.

Her impact on me is still the same as before.

Tumangkad siya.

Her body is much fitter than before.

Napansin ko na mas tahimik na siya ngayon natetense ba siya.

The show went on and we ask question on each of them.

"My question is for Deanna Wong." I said.

She looks shock when I said it.

"What is it feel like to be back in the Philippines after a year in Japan? Marami ka bang na miss?" What the fuck is this question saakin pa talaga napunta to ha.