UNCERTAINTY

Epilogue

Deanna's

The moment I stepped in the door, the heavy feeling inside me automatically kicked in.

Mahigpit kung hinawakan ang kamay ni Tabby.

Dito ako kumukuha ng lakas.

Dito ko hinuhugot sa batang ito ang kagustuhan kong mabuhay.

I don't know where I'am or if I'm still in my state of mind kung hindi dahil sa batang ito.

Siguro nabaliw na ako.

"Mama are you okay?" She asked

Lumuhod ako para magpantay kami.
"Yes anak, makikita na natin si Mommy be brave ha."

Tumango siya.

"You see anak ,Mommy may looked different now ok, kasi she has been sick for a long time na. Don't be scared ok."

I don't know kung anong magiging reaction niya pag nakita niya si Jema hindi niya pa ito nakita mula ng maaksidente ito.

"I'll be fine Mama, I want to see Mommy na" she can't hide her excitement.

Tumango ako at huminga ng malalim.

Nakarating na kami sa private room malapit sa ICU

"Mama will come in first muna ha, I will talk to Mr. Doctor muna to ask if its ok na magvisit ka kay Mommy ok, stay here ok."

Tumango siya.

We need to wear protective gears to protect her from acquiring infection from us.

Habang sinusuot ko ito, I can't help but to cry.

Naalala ko pa yung moment na binalita sakin yung nangyari, yung moment na nakita ko siya.

She needs to be rush back to the Philippines from Japan.

Japan was severely damaged that even the hospitals there are unable to accommodate everyone anymore.

Sabi nila it's a miracle to bring here back to the Philippines alive.

Well I need another miracle pa.

For her to wake up and be fine again it may sound so easy but it's not.

It pains me to see her like that, hindi ako sanay na ganyan siya.

She's bald because she undergo operation to evacuate the blood in her brain, she has a fractured legs yes both of them it's another operation for her good thing she survived.
She's very thin and she has a machine connected to her to support her breathing.

Huminga muna ako ng malalim bago ako pumasok.

"Hello Love."

"How's your day did you dream of me ha?"

Tumabi ako sakanya at hinawakan ang kamay niya.

"Dinala ko dito si Tabby, she wants to see you alam ko namiss niyo ang isa't isa kasi matagal kayo di nagkita." Hindi ko mapigilan maiyak.

"Gising kana Mahal, araw araw akong nag hihintay, hinihintay kita ikaw ang rason kaya ako bumabangon araw araw, sana ikaw din gumising kana para samin."

Hindi ko siya magawang tingnan ng matagal dahil sa sitwasyon niya. Hinalikan ko siya sa noo to bid goodbye.

Hindi kasi pwede magtagal dito limited time lang ang pagbisita para narin sa welfare niya.

Paglabas ko nakasalubong ko si Doc.

"Kamusta Doc any progress?" I asked her I'm expecting for a good news.