UNCERTAINTY

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Ponggay's

Hindi umuwi si Deanna, after namin mag away umalis siya.

Nakita ko siyang umalis ng gabing yun at umaga na siya bumalik.

I try to talk to her  and apologize pero she said she needed some space.

Natatakot akong mawala siya.

Hindi pwedeng mawala siya sakin.

It's been a week now, Hindi na ko nagtrabaho, I'm following Deanna where ever she goes gusto ko malaman kung sino ang babae niya.

I know she's cheating on me I can feel it.

Akin lang si Deanna.

Nang masiguro ko na nasa training si Deanna umuwi muna ako sa Condo, I will cook for her panigurado pagod at gutom yun paguwi niya.

I will make her want me again.

Pagdating ko sa Unit ko I saw Ate Therese my sister.

"What are you doing here Ate?" I asked

"Bakit hindi kana pumapasok sa trabaho Pongs, Mom said you've been absent for a week now. Is everything ok?"

"I'm fine Ate, Deanna needs me so I decided to quit my Job, Alam mo naman si Deanna she's soft and fragile she needed me all the time."

"Wag kang magsinungaling Pongs, Deanna doesn't need you, busy siya sa training niya, what is wrong with you are you back at it again ha?"

"No! She needs me, sasaktan lang nila si Deanna, I will protect her whatever it takes."

"Oh my god,ok ka lang ba, I think we need to go to your doctor again?"

"What are you talking about Ate, I'm not sick, magaling na ako kaya nga nakapag aral ako sa ateneo diba."

"Pongs you are not okay."

"Listen to me Ate okay lang ako you can go know kasi uuwi na si Deanna we will have dinner together."

Wala nagawa si Ate ng pinaalis ko siya.

I prepare a fine dining tapos hinintay ko na siya sa labas.

After a while I saw her.

"Babe!" Nilapitan ko siya.

I tried to kiss her pero umiwas siya.

"Pongs not now I'm tired."

"Babe handa na ang pagkain kain kana, tapos ihahanda ko na gamit mo for you to rest." Hindi ko pinansin ang sinabi niya.

"Pongs ano ba? I said I'm tired."

"Deanna please ayusin na natin to, I'm sorry I love you so much." I plead

"Pongs pano natin maaayos to kung di mo ako tinatantanan, Akala mo hindi ko alam you've been following me for weeks, ano ba nangyayari sayo ha! Nakakainis na, you know what I'm leaving, maghahanap na ako ng ibang tutuluyan ko this is not going to work."

Nagulat ako sa sinabi niya.

"No babe please, No! I love you sobrang mahal lang kita natatakot lang ako na mawala ka."

"Lalo ako mawawala sayo sa ginagawa mo, buong araw mo ako sinusundan for god's sake."

"I'm trying my best to make it work kahit gulong gulo na ako sa mga ginagawa mo, iniisip ko yung pinagsamahan natin kasi importante siya sakin pero this is too much Pongs this is not healthy anymore nasasakal na ako. I'm leaving I'm sorry."

Parang gumuho ang mundo ko.

I saw her leave.

This is not happening.