I'm Breaking

Chapter 14

Chaeyoung PoV

I sat down in the car, panting. Jungkook asked the driver to stay with his parents place and he'll drive me home.

Goodness, I was so scared with that dinner. His mother looks scarier than my aunt! Scarier than Jennie! My fingers were shaking, my heart was beating so fast and I can't get a grip of myself.

This is too much, oh my God. That was too much.

I thought that it's some kind of question and answer dinner and not a dramatic one! Did you think I anticipated Jungkook's father to come home and start yelling at the Jangs and his mother, and laughing so weirdly?!

What can I even say?! I'm at lost of words. A few weeks ago, I was just a normal mom with a daughter and 3 living girl friends and a great career as a surgeon! Not a 'can you be my pretend girlfriend?'.

Jungkook sat down in the driver's seat, next to me and he was laughing. He was laughing?! Excuse me, but why is he laughing?!

"That was so funny!" he laughed.

I looked at him, "So funny?! So funny? Really? Okay, when your mom and uncle were asking me questions about my personal life, how is that funny?! When a younger person tries to fire back at you, how the hell is that funny?!!!"

"Aigoo~" he pinched my cheek. "You did well, Ms. Science. Plus, you completely shut down Wonyoung and my father likes you!"

"How is that gonna help me calm down?! I'm totally un-calm! My life was perfectly normal when I didn't meet you. I don't need to be rich and all to just get what I want, and most of all, I do not take insults to the hardwork I spent in my career! And--"

He placed his pointer on my mouth, "I didn't say that you'll be my girlfriend nor did I say you need to be rich. Besides, you kicked my marriage off, I'm happy about that and I won't ask for more."

I sighed, "No! I cannot accept the fact that an immature woman has disrespected me for what I have achieved! She does not even have the right to say those words! God dammit, I'm so angry!"

"How angry? Like punch a wall angry, or knife angry?"

"Both!"

Then he pushes me in and hugs me from his seat, which is very uncomfortable for my hips. I'm angrier now.

Not at Jungkook, no. At my self. I'm angry at myself because I'm letting my feelings in after the time he comforted me for Jiyoon's accident. It's like running to the light but theres a person there who stops you from running and your heart starts pounding.

Like a romantic scene but in slow motion. In a real life scenery, and I always made sure I wouldn't make these scenes appear to me anymore after Junhoe. Why am I letting my guard down?

Why am I letting my guard down at someone who I barely know and just met? I've lived a life full of just one-night stands and suddenly stopped. I lived a life with no man by my side, so why do I feel like melting when I'm with him?

"Well you can't get your fingers hurt, can you?" he laughs while still hugging.

I started to cry because of the pain I remember from Junhoe. I knew it, I'm not fixed yet. After 5 years, I'm not fixed. Not fixed from the pain I spent for the first few months of break up.

"Y...Yeah..I..c-can't hurt them," I said, trying to hold my tears.

He broke the hug and looked at me, "Are you crying? Chaeyoung, are you fine?"

I shook my head, "I'm fine, I'm fine."

"No you're not, look me in the eye and tell me you're fine."