I'm Breaking

Chapter 62

Chaeyoung PoV

I chuckle as Mr. Jeon talks about Jungkook's childhood. 

The way Jungkook cried in his first swimming lessons. Il-Do and Jungkook had private swimming lessons in the Jeon Mansion, when Jungkook first dipped his toe in the water, he cried. He only stepped in when Il-Do said he'd win a competition if Jungkook doesn't learn how to swim. 

His next funny experience as a child, was when the Jeons were in New York. The family was in Times Square, and there were a lot of people dressed up for entertainment. There was a man, playing a guitar, with only his underwear on and he was covered in body paint, Jungkook laughed at him, saying: "Naked! Naked!"

I learned that he was very an embarrass-free kid. 

The only problem Mr. Jeon had as his father, was how come Jungkook only remember the bad times. The days where Mr. Jeon just wanted Jungkook to read books for his betterment, and not those moments where Mr. Jeon would always be in his soccer competition. 

Mr. Jeon placed a chicken piece on my plate and smiled. 

"That's how to be a good parent," he said. "No matter how busy I was, I always went to Jungkook, Il-Do, Seunghan's school activities. Make friends with other parents on family days, take them to church, or go to the sports center and buy things for them."

I now realize why Mr. Jeon wanted to talk to me during lunch. 

Because no matter what his position is in the company, he still made time for his family. Unlike me, I'm not even close to the status of their family, yet I still don't make time for Jiyoon. 

"Don't get me wrong, young one," he assured me. "Being a surgeon? That job needs a lot of commitment. Emergencies will always take you away from your loved ones, and it's unavoidable."

"Even though, as a parent, I should've still made time for Jiyoon," I said. 

"But we cannot take back time, instead of sulking over the past, why not start anew? This time, you have someone to rely on, and he can rely on you at times. What's there to be scared of? Jiyoon's only 5 years old, there's a lot more in life she can learn."

"Hmm, it does sound nice."

Mr. Jeon took a sip of his water, "Do you love my son?"

"Yes, I do. I was about to tell him about Jiyoon, not on the same day of our fight, though. But our worlds just don't intersect. He's also a workaholic, like me. Both of us don't even know a lot of things about each other," and I struggled to say my next sentence. "And I don't know...if I should even tell him that even if his hyung doesn't want me to be with him, I will stick with him forever."

Mr. Jeon just looks at me as I said my last sentence. It took me a while to find the right words to say it. When I looked at Mr. Jeon, he seemed to be confused which made me panic. 

"I mean, I don't have any signs or clues that tell me that I should fight for me and him rather than him fighting for us," I elaborated. 

He nods and smiles, "Isn't Jiyoon the answer to that?"

"Huh?"

"She maybe..made out of love, premaritally and with the thought of 'one-night stands'. But accidents happen and sometimes for a good reason. Even if she was made with out love, she was raised with love. Jungkook loves her, you love her. It's just like mathematics, a=b, b=c therefore, a=c."

I nod, "If we're going on calculations and geometry, or philosophy, I'm understanding. I don't understand this connotation."

He chuckled, "Leave intelligence out of this conversation, dear. Let's say you are variable A, Jiyoon is variable B, and Jungkook is variable C. If A loves B, and B loves C, then we can conclude?"