I'm Breaking

Chapter 60

Author PoV

"Jungkook, listen, she's caused enough in your life. You're CEO, not dad's representative!" Il-Do shouted at Jungkook. 

They were having a heated talk when he came to see Jungkook. 

With Il-Do disagreeing that Chaeyoung should be part of his younger brother's life. Even if he wants to support him with his love interests, the safety of Jungkook matters more. 

He has to be something in his life. 

Something that Jungkook has been taught for his whole life. Staying at the Top 1 spot in the company ranking all over Korea, is in his hands, and he can't just leave his work because of love. 

"Hyung--she deserves a family--"

Il-Do threw his hands in the air, "Jeon Jungkook. Listen, I don't hate Chaeyoung-"

"But it sounds like--"

"Zip it," Il-Do commanded. "I don't hate her. But goddamit, Jungkook, you're a fucking 27 year old man, grow up! How much more damage are you going to receive?! She's an amazing person, I get it. But don't you think fate is telling, you aren't meant to be?"

Jungkook was left aback, "Hyung..I.."

"It's fine to still like her but Jungkook, learn how to let go of someone, for once. Like 5 years ago, if you had let Yuri leave for America, she would've been alive and happily married with you!" Il-Do snapped. "Learn, Jungkook, learn!" 

The tears of Jungkook flowed down his cheeks, his eyes turning red. 

It's true. 

If he actually just allowed Yuri to go then the 'what ifs' he has been thinking about would've been real. But at the same time, if those 'what ifs' of his came true, then he wouldn't have met Chaeyoung or even had Jiyoon. 

Jungkook grits his teeth, "Yuri is a different discussion..leave her out of this."

"Oh, my god, Jeon Jungkook!" Il-do brushes his hair, frustratedly. "When will you learn how to quit?! Huh? Until your hurt? Are you going to forbid Chaeyoung-ssi of her rights?! This is exactly how it happened, Jungkook! This is 5 years ago, but with a different girl and a different situation! Why can't you understand that she's been messing your life?! Because it's love?! Tell you what, Jungkook, it isn't love, it's a fucking dream!" 

Jungkook shot his teary eyes to his hyung, "You don't know how it feels, hyung! You don't know how it feels to love a person dearly! You don't know the feeling of wanting someone in your arms, but just cannot because of who you are!"

Il-Do looks at his brother. Still frustrated on how Jungkook can't see the bigger picture of his career, or his future. Doesn't mean he's in his later 20s, he can do whatever he wants. All Il-Do wants is the best and good thing for Jungkook.

But at the same time Il-Do snapped at Jungkook. 

"Then learn how to fucking let go!" Il-Do pointed at Jungkook. "Learn how to accept things that your reality in your tiny ass world cannot accept. You're a man, not a fucking child. Snap out of this imagination and stop thinking about your dreams!"

"Hyung, I can't let her go--" Jungkook shook his head. 

"Is she so fucking precious, that you can't last a moment without her?!" Il-Do shouted with his eyes wide. 

Jungkook nodded, "Eo, that's how much I love her! And our child needs a complete family too, you can't strip her off of that need!" 

As Jungkook gasps while crying, Il-Do looked at him still with his eyes wide.