I'm Breaking

Chapter 26

Jungkook PoV

I was reading a book. 

Very unusual of me but I found it when I was fixing through the things me and Yuri used to share. I was cleaning my room because of the decision I made. 

Move on. 

It took me long to realize this. A year or 2 after Yuri passed, I've been addicted to alcohol, bars and one-night stands. Then, Yoongi and Jin told me to stop and gave me a plane ticket to Switzerland. 

They told me to get a grip of myself and try to enjoy the mountainous view of Switzerland. In short, they made me go on a trip to learn more about myself. I've actually wanted to go to European pubs instead but they made sure I'd be enjoying around. 

Both of them got me to join a 3-day tour. And, I have to admit, it was life changing. I realized how much I've missed in my life even if it was 2 years only.

And 3 years later, I've kept myself close to Yuri. Made a routine to visit her grave once every week, try to remember our happy times and all the memories we had together. 

When I talked to Hoseok a while ago, he asked me: "What's Yuri to you?".

After my hyungs graduated high school, I was left alone. Taehyung and Jimin were there but by that time they were focused on their lives too. It was just me, myself and I. Although Yuri accompanied me in everything. 

In short, she was a special person. 

Not until we had a fight, when she chose a choice that would benefit her future more. 

Hoseok then asked me: "If she was a person who accompanied me in everything, where is she now?"

I could ask that myself, where is she now? 

Hyung advised me to grow out of it. That the 6 of them won't always be there to sulk with my sorrows and problems. Jin and Jisoo are working things out, Yoongi announced he's dating a British heir, Hoseok is engaged to Wendy-noona, Namjoon has shown interest on a professor, Jimin is preparing his wedding with Seulgi-noona and Taehyung is finding his bride. 

Where will I be? Loner? 

When I came home, I took out the things Yuri and I had when we were together. And there was a birthday present I never got to open, it was for me. Turned out to be the 'Little Prince'. A story about a prince who lives on a planet alone. 

It got interesting when the fox came to him and told him the famous quote, "It is only with the heart that one can see rightly; what is invisible is essential to the eyes."

For a short book, the meaning was really deep. 

And I guess, I've been using my brain instead of my heart. 

The door in my room opened, and a little girl walked in my room. 

"Can't sleep again? Or do you just want to sleep with appa?" I asked her. 

She walked sloppily to my bed. 

"Appa is going away tomorrow," she crawled up. "And eomma isn't here. Why can't I just come with you?"

"Aish, go to sleep. Appa will bring you to school tomorrow," I said and pulled her in a hug. 

She looked at me, "Appa, I'll miss you."

I rubbed my hand at her back, "Aish, this kid. I know your eomma has been hard on you, but appa won't always be here for you, sunshine. Sunshine? Good night, sunshine."

I turned off the lights. 

Chaeyoung PoV

This is my 2nd surgery here. Honestly it has been fun.