I'm Breaking

Chapter 54

Author PoV

Jungkook took off her top, laid her on his bed and kissed her passionately. 

Until it hit him. 

She's drunk, why am I taking advantage of her? He said to himself. 

So he stopped and it confused her.

Chaeyoung didn't control herself, she wasn't composed. All she wanted was to feel comforted, and in her head she wanted to have sex. But Jungkook didn't want to do it that way. 

He didn't want to make love with a person who won't remember it, who couldn't commit herself fully to him. It's true, he did want to do it with her but not in this way. Not when everything is messed up. 

"Let's stop," he said and got off of her. 

She was still confused of what's going on. After he got off the bed, he picked up his grey shirt and placed the blanket on top of Chaeyoung. 

Then he walked out of his room, deciding to sleep in the guest room. 

Chaeyoung sat up, with the blanket covering her chest and looking at Jungkook who was walking out of the room. She brushed her hair backwards and another set of tears fell out. 

"What the hell is wrong with me?" she cried and covered her face with her palms. 

She laid back down in the bed, crying to sleep. Not knowing why things like this were happening to her. As she looked back to it, what happened for the past few weeks, she realized a lot of things. 

Like how she promised Jungkook that she'll answer him once she's ready, or how Jungkook treated her like his very own girlfriend when she isn't, or how she promised that she's never going to fall in love with Junhoe again. 

As she fell asleep, Jungkook stood by the door, watching Chaeyoung cry to sleep. He was still not wearing his shirt, as he does not want to smell her scent. 

He misses her. 

What happened? He asked himself. 

Seeing her cry and blaming herself for the things that happened made him feel like crying. The time he read her text message that Junhoe came back to see her, it hurt him really bad. But he can't stop denying that he's still in love with her. 

No matter how many times he'll say that he will start again, try to move on and so on, he couldn't. Because the lady who is on top of his bed, is one of the kind. Just like Yuri, Chaeyoung had a sweet, kind and graceful vibe. 

Everything he wants in a girl, was in her. 

He took a deep breath and walked to her. Placed her hand in his while the other hand wiped off the dried tear drops on her face. 

"I still love you," he said. "Even if you'd make me jump for that bullet a million times. I don't want to lose you, not anymore."

With that, he walked out of his room and laid down on the bed in the guest room. 

Jungkook PoV

I woke up to see a gloomy morning. 

Last night, I barely had a good sleep. With the sound of Chaeyoung's constant crying every 30 minutes, it didn't allow me to sleep soundly. How can I sleep soundly? 

She was crying in my room. She was calling herself an idiot, a stupid moron and everything negative. 

Even if I wanted to go to her last night, she needed some personal space. For sure, right now, it would hurt her more if I were the one who was comforting her. And right now, I'm the one hurting because I'm seeing her like this.