I'm Breaking

Chapter 33

Chaeyoung PoV

"Cardiac arrest!"

"Quick, CPR!"

I put my hands together and kneeled beside our Korean representative, Mr. Lee.

He was found under a big cemented piece, yelling 'help'. When they finally rescued him, he was placed inside the medical hut for first aid but all of a sudden he had a seizure.

My hands positioned itself on the chest of Mr. Lee, and I quickly did a CPR.

"1, 2, 3," I counted.

It's tiring to do CPR. My hands started to turn red because of it, but Mr. Lee was the father of our group the whole time we were here. He has a special place with us, and he was the kindest person to us here.

I don't want anyone to die.

No one should die.

"Doctor Park," the Swedish doctor took off my hands from Mr. Lee's chest. "He's dead."

"No," I said and did CPR again. "He's not dead. If you only placed the right injection.."

My eyes started to water.

"Doctor Park!" the Swedish doctor yelled and bowed his head. "Call it. As a doctor, learn how to let go."

I wiped my tears and covered my face. Then I looked at the dead count board and I didn't want to add another one.

The Swedish doctor rubbed his hand on my back and the foreign nurses covered Mr. Lee with a blue cloth. They were going to start carrying him and put him in a green bag.

"Call it, Ms. Park," he said.

I looked at my watch, "Lee Shin-Seo...time of death, Hawaiian time...1:54 PM."

I closed my eyes and more tears kept on coming.

"It's okay, Doctor Park. You were absolutely incredible to have reacted like that," he said. "If it weren't for you, he would've died completely because of cardiac arrest and I wouldn't have performed CPR. You're a hero, never forget that."

I nodded to him and he stood up and tended to injured patients.

The Korean soldier who was assigned under the UN military, did a salute and placed a small Korean flag on Mr. Lee's bag.

He sighed, "Lee Shin-Seo, dead count number 9."

I stood up and tried to breath deeply.

Like what Namjoon-sunbae said to me in my operation before. Never let your emotions get to you first. Deal with it behind the scenes. But the sight of seeing people dead, back to back is making me cry.

No one deserves this. Not them. They were helping the world become a better place..and they easily die off like that.

Without me noticing, my tears were starting to crawl off to my cheeks. Seeing lifeless people is too much for me too handle.

I squatted on the ground, and covered my face.

"You can't possibly break down here, can you?"

I looked up to my right and saw him there, "Jungkook-ah.."

He squatted next to me, "You're an amazing person, you know that?"

I shook my head, "If I had performed the CPR quicker, then Mr. Lee would still be alive."

"No, life's just like that. People come and go."

I stay there quiet, "How're you here?"

"Me?" he pointed to himself. "I just want you home."