I'm Breaking

Chapter 35

Chaeyoung PoV

They all clapped at me as I walk out of the ambulance. 

I saved someone. The bodyguard of the head Korean representative is in recovery in the hospital. Amputation surgery on 2 legs. 

Do I have luck today?

What are you talking about, Chae? Don't be blinded by that kind of believing. 

Anyway, it's now turning to the evening time. But everyone seems to be determined to look for other UN members. 

I heard that the UN military force is in need of men because they have dispatched small unit groups to different parts in Hawaii. But they've focused more on the UN members and the people in this ghost town. 

When I walk around, looking for Yeri, the night lights turned on. Everyone looked and started to bounce in joy.

That meant, that the public connection is now on. Except that the public connection in this town is in the UN military force quarters. All UN quarters have public connection but considering the crumpled building? I think we don't have. 

I don't feel tired at all. I feel absolutely energized. It's like rewarded myself a little for making someone live longer. 

"Doc!" Yeri ran to me. 

She hugged me tight, "Oh, jinjja."

I rubbed her back, "Are you being emotional? Remember Kim Yeri, this is not the place where you get emotional!" 

"No, I'm just thankful we're all safe," she smiled. "Anyway, doc. Around 10 minutes from now, we're going to go inside the basement of the building and look for more survivors. 5 Korean soldiers will go with us."

"Why 10 minutes? What are we doing in those 10 minutes? We can go in now!" 

"Actually, they're giving out food and water right now. I'm sure you've eaten in the hospital, but I saved both of us 2 bottles of water."

I nodded, "It's okay. I don't want to eat anyway."

She tilted her head, "Strange. When I was 1st year intern with you, you always thought about eating and eating or when's lunch or the next break. What's happened to Professor Park then?"

I awkwardly laughed, "People change."

The Chaeyoung that used to be happy? 

Where is she? Where the hell did she go? 

When I used to be with Junhoe, my happiness always kicks in. I'd either giggle, wiggle, beg for food, puff my cheeks and a lot of other things. 

The things that happy people do.

But when we broke up, the next day, I performed a surgery and began to break down in the middle. Sunbae told me to get out of his operation room and come when I'm all better.

The Chief Park Jin Young called me and asked me to have a counselling with him. I came home, perfectly fine but my face didn't say it. I was so monotone and dull. 

My most unhappy days of my life. 

I barely came home afterwards, I barely ate, I barely did fun activities. Until a new sign told me that I should still live.

While assisting on a surgery with Park Jiyeon-sunbae, I fainted. When I woke up, Yoona-sunbae told me that I'm becoming a mother. That's the start of me slowly becoming happy again, but I'm still not as happy as before. 

I didn't make the pregnancy the reason why I'll skip a year of my residency. There was only 2 months left, for sure the first trimester can be the scariest but it's the time where I won't have a clear baby bump yet.