My Love, Brian May {Book 2}

Afterwards

June 1st
     It has been a week since Brian and I had gotten "back together" so to say. I must say, I never thought I would be right here where I am now. I thought I would've been dead by now... thank god I'm not.
     I haven't seen, spoken, or even talked about Roger since the night I rejected him... again, thank god I did. I'm not sure Dom knows about the whole situation yet and to be honest, I kinda don't want her to. I mean... she's my maid of honor, I can't lose her.
     Then again... ugh! I don't know. I don't know a lot of things right now. I seem to be in that time where my life's okay but I'm still questioning my reality. I mean... Brian forgave me for cheating for crying out loud!
     The wedding is over a month away. We decided to have our wedding in a nice outdoor space around night when the stars will be shining down on us and the guests. And it's still scheduled for Brian's birthday.
     I am now on my bed, staring up at the ceiling while Brian's at band rehearsal with the others including Roger... which is why I skipped.
     Other than that... I've been doing fine. My cuts have scabbed and are looking a bit better. I keep going back to when I thought I was actually gonna end my own life and thinking how dumb I was. 'Why would I end my life over a mistake that most humans make?' But every time I ask that question... I end up with 'what you did was fucked up and you broke his heart. You don't deserve to be with him, not for one second.' These thoughts kept me up at night, filling all my brain space until I passed out from exhaustion.
Mary and Freddie broke up and are now seeing different people sadly, but Mary and I are still pretty close. Almost everyone now knows about Freddie's coming out... except John. Poor guy, he's too pure I swear.
My thoughts suddenly stop at the sound of the door opening and closing. I sit up and see a familiar face enter the room.
"How was rehears..." I say before I get interrupted by Brian's lips crashing onto mine creating a loving, passionate kiss. I quickly break away to smile into his eyes. "So, I'm guessing it was good?"
     "It was wonderful. But not as wonderful as coming home to you my love..." He whispers before planting another kiss on my smiling lips. 'See what I mean, how can he be so okay with it all and still love me?'
     I let out a small giggle before replying. "I love you so much Brian..." I say in a soft, quiet tone, just under a whisper as I wrap my arms around his neck and pull him into another kiss.
"Oh right I forgot to tell you..." he starts, breaking the kiss and taking a seat next to me on the bed. "We just set the tour date today! We chose to stay in England this time because you'll be pregnant, hopefully, and I don't want you to be too terribly tired during the tour. Is that okay with you love?" He asks staring into my awestruck eyes.
"Uh... yeah. Yeah I guess so... God you and this child. Do you even have a name in mind?" I ask out of context allowing him to look up in thought. A small smile appears on his face as he finds the perfect name.
     He looks down to meet my curious filled eyes. "Well if it's a girl, I'd like to name her... Rose. If it's a boy, I'd like to name him... Michael."
     I stare at him in awe. "Rose and Michael..." I repeat while letting his choices soak into my brain. "I like it. When did you come up with those?"
     "Just now. Rose to describe a beautiful, smart, soft girl. Michael to describe a young, handsome, kind boy."
"You do realize all of those characteristics describe you, y'know that right?" I chuckle as he furrows his eyebrows at my comment.
     "Oh stop it. They're characteristics that we both share."
     "Last I check I wasn't getting any younger." I giggle as he cracks a small smile followed by a slow head shake.
     "Well last I check, you weren't getting any older either. You still look like the high schooler I met 9 years ago."
     "Is that a compliment? Cause I was not the pretty looking high schooler back then."
     "Then how come I fell for you over those other girls?" He answers my question with yet another question.
     "I'm not gonna answer that..." I whisper in a slightly seductive tone as his lips spread into an evil smirk.
"Why you little..." He starts but is stopped by my lips pressing against his, interrupting his statement. I feel him smile as he kisses me back before pulling away with the same smile painted on his face.
     "Now now Mr. May... I wouldn't want to use that foul language around me or else you might not receive your birthday present from me..." I tease while cocking an eyebrow sarcastically.
     "And what might that be?" He replies in my familiar sarcastic tone, making me slowly shake my head.
     "That, my dear sir, is a surprise until the day arrives. I will give you this hint though... it's something you've wanted for quite some time."
     "A new amp?" He guesses making me furrow my eyebrows in confusion.
     "Brian you have like 24 amps and besides... you can always buy yourself a new one." I tease once again, getting a small laugh out of him this time.
     "A new sound crew?" He tries again, eyeing me jokingly.
     "Hey!" I reply before playfully shoving him making him laugh again. "I'm a pretty good sound operator." I giggle as I thought of his gift. Like I said, it's something he's always wanted...a child.