There's tension in my soul,
I feel it losing control...
And all I can do is ignore it.
My heart it's beating,
Not fast, not slow.
But I feel it tugging, keeping a hold...
Of what's left...
Of this soul!
Questions arise!
For the depth of unknown.
And I don't know what I'm supposed to do...
I close my eyes, thinking that I'll grasp it for you.
Not only, are you in my life...
But now I'm slowly starting to realize that I-
Don't want to lose you.
The old way that I was, picture it.
What I had been, I can be better for it to fit.
These old habits, are part of my personality.
Why can't I loosen this tensions part of me?
Listening to my own heart beat.
Hearing the music in the background.
My thoughts aren't clear.
I need clarity.
When I close my eyes, I imagine...
Being connected, and now?
I don't feel a thing but I know it's there.
And it makes me sad to think...
Future. Please define thee!
Surprise me, sure. Don't kill me!
Everyone knows the ending...
And the beginning is simple.
But innocence?
Has gone to waste.
After all this time...
And in between are questions we seeks answers too.
Until then, the five w's.
Swirl among my head.
I laid down today,
Needless to say- I didn't like what my mind had to say.
Are you losing yourself?
How long till then?
Remember when?
Are those tears I feel?
How often?
Who cares?
What will you do?
Where are you going?
When will you do what you want to do, when will go where you want to go.
Why anything?!
I don't know.
It's the murky waters of my soul
I feel it slipping, away
Rest in the peace of yesterday.
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12.4.15
About myself in general featuring My Kryptonite.
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Assurgent Construction
PoésieA poetry collection of an American Filipino. the following expresses his thoughts and emotions as he studies abroad. This is the second book in Culture Distortion.
