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Imaginary Council

You have this interesting way of keeping my head up.

Use reverse psychology, that's your tactic for me.

When I think that I'm going to bring us down, you look me in the eyes and say that I will.

Then you lift you head and add, "But that's for you to decide."

Part of me despises you. It despises that part of you that controls me.

Is it control or is it because you know me?

Of course, you don't actually say anything.

This version of you lives inside my head.

On my knees, I am, and there you are standing over me.

"If anything, if no one believes in you, if you don't believe if you, remember that I do. Remember that I always will."

Words haunt me as I try to give up. I think of all the 'if's and 'when's'.

All I see if you shaking your head.

"Go on then," You say. A match is in between your fingertips.

"Destroy everything." You jest.

A glare meets your daring gaze.

Without another word, you hand me the match.

Hate washes over me, so intense, I can't stand it.

For I know that I won't because I've come so far.

Jest, you do, you mock me- you know me.

Power over me, you have.

Crushing the match in my fist, I walk away.

Later, you join me and place a hand on my shoulder.

"Understand that if this is what you need, I will give it." You say.

My eyes don't meet your gaze.

"Are you disappointed?" You question me.

"Does it anger you that you can't ruin what we've built together?" You snort.

"Whatever is going on through that head of yours, remember this." You say as you stand.

"It was you who insisted on this. On rebuilding our friendship. It might have been you who tore us apart but you didn't burn our bridge. You stepped away because you wanted to fix you and I had time to fix me."

As you take a step away from me, you add. "All of this, is because of you."

"Dare not forget, my friend."

Our eyes meet, and you see my sorrow.

"Self-destruction is the worse for you." You say. "But I need you, and you need me." You smirk and walk away.

Left in silence, I am. In doubt, I still believe.

Overall, I know you're right which is why I'm bickering.

Friendship is what I wanted and friendship is what we have.

Had it not been for me, we'd still be lost at sea.

Overhead, I look at the stars and wonder,

To who do I owe the pleasure?

Who told me that I need you and you need me?

That's when you return and sit next to me.

"Still on that?" You ask, and I have to remember that I can't hide from this mental version of you.

"Take your time." You say as we sit in silence.

"After all, this is your world not mine. But you know..." You say as I look over you.

Our eyes meet we have a silent conversation.

Admit it, I would but you don't want to hear it.

Open to hearing it, you'd say, but that's not the truth.

Three wonders linger in between us, but instead these three are the ones that make due.

"I appreciate you." I say and smile a small smile.

Without another word, you nod.

In silence, you say more than your words.

Always open to listening about my world.

Faith in our loyalty is something you'll never doubt again.

But never will you fully be at my side.

Imaginary, you are when it comes to some of your council.

True, you would say these words.

Yet they are not you, it's the imaginary you.

The you that never left me and never will.

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5.27.19

Inspired by 'Vaccination or Virus'

To My Foundation. Let us hope that there will never be a fire again.