I could never write a suicide letter.
Because it reminds me of saying "See you tomorrow" than a disappearance.
Writing a Will is another story.
It's a letter of trust and permission after death.
A suicide letter is a good bye forever.
And my friends voices surface then.
I've been told,
Without me, people wouldn't be here,
But I feel so alone.
How many lives do I have to save in order to save my own?
A letter of suicide, I can't imagine.
I remember I tried once or twice.
Being a writer I thought it would be easy,
But...
"Nobody said it was easy."
Are the words that sin through my head.
Then I remember what I've done.
Although I'm doing nothing.
Hearing words like "never" and "always."
Then "forever" can mix you up.
In a suicide letter,
I'd remember I'd see her standing over me with crossed arms.
I'd see them, tears in their eyes holding their arms out.
I'd see my mother, crying out.
An my nephew lost and confused.
Searching each and every room.
Asking where I am...
That being said,
A Will I can do.
But a letter such as suicide...
I'd hold it to my last interest.
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February 13, 2015
"Cry For Help" - spiceypricey
2015 didn't know that 2018 me would be struggling so much that he did write a suicide letter, but left it to remind him of what he's been through. - 5.11.19
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PoesiaA poetry collection of an American Filipino. the following expresses his thoughts and emotions as he studies abroad. This is the second book in Culture Distortion.
