Where I'd Gone ⌲ River Phoenix ((COMPLETED))

Drained Out

"Oh, um," I was at a loss of words. "Well, I think it's so cool that your parents named you after a Beatles song," I spoke, desperately trying to change the subject. He diverted his eyes over to the food stand where his friend was waving at him.

"I hope we can talk more Chris," He said as he started making his way over there.

"Hey! Why did you call me Chris? Nobody calls me that..." I yelled out, confused.

"It suits you!" He replied with a sweet and cheeky grin. As he back towards me, I looked over at Mickey.

"I gotta try to find Wil," I told him.

"Where is he going to be?" He asked, lowering his eyes. I shrugged, just hoping I'd meet him before the day is over.

I leaned back onto the wall and scanned the whole room. "Where is he..." I muttered to myself.

"What are you even going to say to him?" Mickey asked.

"I... Have no idea." I narrowed my eyes and continued looking around the room. Suddenly everyone crowded around one person and I crossed my fingers that it wouldn't be River. But it wasn't.

"Hello, actors and actresses. I'm Rob and will be guiding you through Stand by Me, which is the new title for our movie - because we wanted to emphasize the meaning of friendship more than the initial story of finding a dead body." It was the director, Rob Reiner. "Hope we have some fun together and finish this movie with our highest potential." He had this light brown hair and a chubby face. His eyes were icy blue, freezing anyone he would look at. "Lets introduce our characters," he flashed us a smile.

"First up, is Gordie Lachance, played by Wil Wheaton," He smirked. I felt nerves rushing through my body. Wil meandered around the crowd and joined Rob in the middle. He was still as perfect as I'd planned he'd be. I nudged Mickey's arm casually and couldn't help but smile

"Next up is Chris Chambers, played by River Phoenix." He beamed yet another smile out to the jam-packed room. As he met with Rob, River leered at the crowd, looking almost disgusted by all the attention on him.

"Then, there is Teddy Duchamp, played by Corey Feldman." Rob faked a smile and watched as Corey fit himself through the crowd.

"And Jerry O'Connell, who's playing Vern Tessio." It was harder for Jerry to fit through the crowd so it took a little time before he reached Rob.

"And last but not least, Kiefer Sutherland, playing Ace Merrill," This time he sparkled a great big smile and you could tell he really liked him. Everyone then scattered around the room and joined in on conversations, but I had a question for Rob about my character, and how it was going to implemented with the new name and overall theme.

I caught up to him from the big hoopla of the crowd and took a deep breath. "Hey Rob, so about my character, Mary Lachance-"

"Oh! um. Look, darling, we have cut Mary out of the movie... So it just rotates around Gordie and his brother, not a sister." He patted my back as my once full of life smile turned into a sad frown.

I faked a smile and held in my tears. "Oh... Yeah, I totally get it." I felt like bursting into tears, knowing I came here for nothing.

"I'm really sorry," he added.

"Since this place is only for the actors... I... Guess I should be going," I managed to spit out, feeling the nerves in my hands fill with anticipated anger.

Before he could say anything, I ran through the crowd, finding any opening I could. Mickey's hand was holding mine, following me where ever I would go. "Where are we going, Chrissy?"

"Out of here," I muttered, humiliated and on the verge of tears. I stumbled upon a huge log outside of the building and dropped my head in my hands. "All of that work for a stupid part..." I mumbled into my dry tears. "Mom is gonna be so sad knowing I got the part only to lose it within the same day." I soon realized Mickey was eyeing me down and I knew I had to act happier than I was. I didn't want him to feel bad for me and I didn't want him to know what rejection felt like at such a young age. Even though I was young too, he was younger and more youthful than I was. He had more happiness in him... The kind joy that I don't ever want to take away from him. He laid back onto the log as I continued to let all my hopes and dreams drain out of me.

After about 5 minutes of pointless crying, I decided we should leave. "C'mon Mickey. Let's go home," I smiled through the pain. At this point, I thought River would just come out of the blue - like he always does - but to my surprise, he didn't.

It sucks how when you don't want something it comes to you, but when you do want something it's never there.