Where I'd Gone ⌲ River Phoenix ((COMPLETED))

Audrey Hepburn

November 4, 1986

I had school today. I was sweating tremendously through every pore. God, what am I going to do? I wish I never went to that party. I should've never went to that party.

I came home at 12 in the afternoon when I left at 8 pm the day before. Iris was emotionally unstable. She was basically hyperventilating when I came in, to say the least. She put a lock on my piano and confiscated all of my sheet music. She said she was going to take my party mix River gave me, but I hid it before she could. She didn't even like the idea of me going to this weird party she knew nothing about. I hope she doesn't know anything about it any time soon though... Ecstasy and Alcohol and LSD and Tom...

John, he was a different story. He gave River a handshake and whispered something in his ear. Later on, River told me he said, "You're the only guy that I'd approve dating Christine." We laughed at that even though I felt weird about it.

Luckily, Iris nor John ever asked what happened or what caused me to be so late. I just went straight to my room and hid anything she could take away. Unfortunately, I didn't think about anything over my eye level or on the top shelf. Rest in peace my sheet music.

River called me up the next day and we talked, mostly ranting about how our parents should be more open-minded about us coming home more than 12 hours later. Heart said she'd never let him go out again to another party, which sucks for me too because he's the life of the party.

Anyway, I got ready. Patted some foundation and blush, while trying to be extremely precise with my eyeliner and mascara. I really wanted to look good. I really wanted Danny to know that Friday was a complete mistake and I'm sorry.

Industrial tech was last, like always, but I knew I wouldn't chicken out and ditch class. My goal was to get there before he did so he'd have to start the conversation. Guess that didn't happen though, and I was left to face the awkwardness by myself.

I sat down, flattening out my dress that I spent hours trying to find. He didn't look over at me. Not even once; and he always glances over at me.

Today was our presentation for the World's Fastest Car project that I completely forgot about. Luckily I did write down a sufficient amount of notes to say.

"Christine and Danny," Mr. Johnson said, and we walked up to the front of the class. The awkwardness was tough- I've never been in a situation like this. River wouldn't have made it this awkward.

"So, this car is constructed with metal and wood, the metal made it go faster due to the declined road." I looked over at Danny, but he still hasn't looked over at me. It really felt like he was deliberately ignoring me. I really wish Colbie and Michael never split into their own group... Which only happened because Danny and Colbie started bickering and fighting constantly.

Was I maybe his first kiss? No... I couldn't have been. He has a girlfriend. Priscilla. Or maybe after she met River she dumped him and now he thinks it's my fault. I'm thinking into this too much.

I had to present everything about the car alone because Danny wouldn't even say one word. He made the ticking time bomb inside of me blow. We never said one word to each other for the whole duration of the class. I pinned him against the locker after school.

"Why won't you talk to me?" I tried not to catch any bystander's attention. "You left me to do the whole presentation alone!"

"Priscilla broke up with me!" He finally yelled out. "It was all at that stupid party!" It seemed as if he didn't know I was at that same party. I let go of his shoulder and he bounced off the wall.

"The only upside was I got to know this really cute girl there. I can't find her anywhere though." Suddenly my heart seemed to ache. Just hearing him talk about another girl tore me apart.