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chapter 39

IVY'S POV
ivy- joey, what's going on?

joey- do you trust me?

ivy- obviously i do. i tell you everything

joey- okay. promise me you won't get mad?

ivy- what is it joey? i'm getting even more worried than i already was when i saw that girl.

joey- listen to me. she is one of bella's friends. i was in my room and i was putting my shirt on when my door opened. i couldn't see and i thought i was bella so i didn't really care if i didn't have a shirt on because she's my sister and i walk around without one sometimes.

ivy- okay and? did that girl walk in on you?

joey- yes. she came onto me and kissed me. i tried pushing her away but i can't hit her and she was holding me too tight. i didn't kiss back i swear on my life.

*right then and there, i feel tears fill my eyes and i run upstairs, locking myself in my room. i slide down the door and cover my mouth so nobody can hear me crying. joey knocks on the door, begging to come in but i don't answer or move. i still there, staring off into space. he said it wasn't his fault and i get that but knowing some girl that is in our grade kissed him? what will happen if i get sick and don't go to school one day. i start panicking, yet again, and curl up into a ball. it always happens. i take deep breaths like joey told me to earlier and i calm down in 20 minutes. i know joey was still waiting for me to open the door but i didn't feel like doing anything. i need to finish my room though so with that thought, i distracted myself by building my dresser, hanging up some pictures, and putting my clothes away in the closet. i make my bed with the sheets joey's mom bought me and sit down. someone knocks on the door and i hold joey's hood over my face and open the door. i don't care who it is, i walk back to my bed and lay down, facing the wall. the person sits on the edge of my bed and someone else rubs my back.*

jen- hey sweetie. how are you feeling?

ivy- i'm fine..

joey- i didn't kiss back princess. i know how it feels to hear about something like that from your girlfriend or boyfriend

ivy- you do..?

joey- yeah. except i was cheated on but i would never do that to you. not after knowing what it feels like

jen- i'll leave you two alone. call my name if you need anything

ivy- thank you..

*and with that, she got up and left my room. she shut the door completely and joey grabs my shoulders and gently turns me so i'm facing him. i pull his hoodie over my face and sniffle. my eyes were swollen and puffy from crying and i didn't want him seeing me like this.*

JOEY'S POV
*i know that she's hurting but if i didn't tell her right away, then it would've been a lot worse. i put her in my lap and she keeps covering her face.*

joey- please talk to me or let me see your beautiful face..

ivy- i'm not beautiful.. my eyes are puffy and swollen.

joey- i didn't mean to hurt you baby..

ivy- i know you didn't.. i'm glad you told me but...

joey- but what my love?

*her voice cracks and i tear up. i don't want her her being like this because of me. she won't even look at me.*

joey- you were overthinking?

*she nods and buries her face in my chest. i pull the hood down off her head and play with her hair. i feel her tears on my shirt and hold her tighter. i kiss her head softly and rock back and forth. she takes deep breaths and looks up at me. right then, my eyes tear up even more and i start crying. she wraps her arms around me, laying back and bringing me with her. she plays with my hair and cry in the crook of her neck.*

joey- i'm sorry, so so sorry...

ivy- you didn't kiss her.. it's not your fault joey..

joey- i promise i won't ever let that happen again..

ivy- if only girls could promise me that too..

*she sighs and wipes my tears with her thumbs just like i do with her. now both of our eyes were swollen and it was only 1:30 pm. i close my eyes, feeling extremely exhausted and in a few minutes, i'm asleep in her arms. i feel her put a blanket over us and she lays her head on mine. she whispers to me softly and says.*

ivy- i'm sorry that this is happening to us..

*im pretty sure she fell asleep after that because the next thing i remember is sophia waking us up for dinner.*

sophia- it's dinner time you guys

joey- what time is it?

sophia- 6:30. go downstairs okay? i'll wake ivy up

joey- i don't think either of us want to go downstairs soph.. could you bring us our food to my room?

sophia- yeah and i also need to talk to ivy in private.

joey- what are you going to do?

sophia- i'm going to apologize and explain myself to her

joey- you promise you aren't lying?

sophia- when have i ever lied to you?

joey- true. just don't make her sad. i already did that today.. and i'm not proud of it.

*she nods and goes back downstairs. i sit up and kiss ivy's cheek softly. i gently shake her and talk softly in her ear.*

joey- wake up love, it's dinner time

ivy- i don't want to go downstairs

joey- i'm having sophia bring our plates to my room

ivy- i don't want to be put down either

joey- she wants to apologize after we eat. it's okay. she's not going to baby

ivy- promise?

joey- i promise 1000 times.

*she sits up after i convince her to and we both stand up, soon hugging each other tightly. we both forgive each other for what happened and walk into my room. ivy sits down on the bed just as sophia knocks on the door. i open the door and take the plates from her, thanking her for bringing them to us.*

sophia- hey um ivy.. could i talk to you?

ivy- yeah.. we can go in my room

*i put our plates on my nightstand and ivy gets up and walks to her room with sophia. i turn on a funny movie for when we are eating and i turn my lights.*