Buttercream Squad x reader [texts and images]

Why Did You Choose Him? (Maynard boys x reader)

There is only one thing I regret in life, and that's letting Jack Maynard into my life. I don't regret our whole relationship, just that I let it happen in the first place. I loved our relationship, we were so happy, and we truly loved each other. The only thing that changed was his work and different comments under his YouTube videos.

His fans were really accepting, until Conor started to get into the YouTube videos with us. Conor and I were best friends before Jack and I got together, and Conor and I did everything together. We were like two peas in a pod, we would get into play fights, we would call each other names, and when we were little we would fall asleep on the couch with each other. Honestly we were inseparable and when the fans saw how we were around each other they wanted something different.

Half of the fans wanted Conor and I to get together while the other half wanted Jack and I to stay together. Some fans would fight with each other about who would be the better couple, others wrote fanfictions about the boys fighting over me or worse different smut about one, the other, or both. It was horrible.

The fans requested a Q and A with all three of us and they had a bunch of questions. Conor suggested a live video which Jack doesn't do very often, but he agreed. Jack sat in the middle of Conor and I on our couch. "You guys ready?" Jack asked us. Both of us nodded as Jack pressed the red button. "Today I have my brother Conor and my beautiful girlfriend Y/n. We are going to do Q and A since many of you requested it, but this one is very special as you see, it's live!"

"Jack I don't know if this is a good idea," I whispered to him. After all the comments he has read about how Conor and I would be a cute couple I don't think he will like some of the questions.

"No it will be fine." He brushed it off, why does that not surprise me? "The first question, goes to the beautiful Y/n. What is your next book going to be about?"

"I can't tell anyone," I giggled.

"Not even a little preview?" Conor asked.

"No, I'm sorry."

"She'll tell me later," Jack nodded his head at me.

"No I won't even show you." It wasn't that I didn't want anyone to see, it was because people reading it before it's published makes me nervous.

"Okay, next question," Jack moved on. "This one is for me," he said in a weird voice. "When are you doing another sibling tag? Here soon actually, I love those."

"Me too," Conor laughed. "Just remember I'm mum's favorite."

"Never, I'm her favorite!"

They started bickering back an fourth until I got in between it. "Hey, HEY! Boys! I think we all know your mum's favorite, and that's Anna."

"Yeah you're right," they both said.

"Good! Next question," I mentally laughed.

"I'm going to look at the live video comments," Jack said. "Y/n, who would you prefer to be your boyfriend between the two?" Jack's voiced faded as he read the last part. "Well, that's obvious. It's me, right?"

"Of course it's you," I said... instantly regretting it.

"But why?" Conor asked, "Why him?"

"What do you mean? Conor, you're my best friend, you will always be in my life."

"But not the way I want to be in," he looked at me with tears in his eyes. Realization came across me; how could I be so blind? "I always loved you, but you never had the same feelings. You always saw me as your best friend and not the cute boy you want to call yours. I've always been friend zoned, ever since we were little."

"That's actually not true," I said. Jack's head snapped towards me in shock. "I thought you never liked me so I've always had feelings for you, but I had feelings for other guys too. Like Jack, I honestly love him, but I've always loved you. I was so confused when Jack asked me out, I thought it would end badly because you two were brothers and I liked both of you equally. I guess I was right."

All of us forgot the camera was still on until Jack stood up and turned it off. "You liked both of us?" Jack turned around with tears rolling down his face. "You never told either of us?"

"I wanted to so badly, but how was I supposed to start that conversation? 'I love you and your brother and I don't know which one I want more because you're both amazing'? I don't think that would be a good conversation. I honestly love you Jack, but... I love your brother too."

"That's a little messed up," Jack said.

"It's not like I can control my feelings," I said. "Trust me, I've tried."

"Who did you try not having feelings for?" Conor asked.

"Both actually, just at different times," I confessed. "Conor, you were all throughout grade school and high school. Jack, you were when I started getting butterflies when you walked into a room."

Jack stood up and started pacing around the room. "This isn't fair! I want you, I want you to love me, I want you to be mine and only mine!"

"Jack you do have me, I'm your girl, I love you so much," my chest started to tighten.

"No! NO! You love him too! My own brother! This isn't fair! He had his chance all these years when you two were around each other twenty-four seven! This is my turn, I love you!" Jack was getting mad at his brother? Why not me? It's not Conor's fault! Honestly it's mine, I shouldn't have gotten together with either of them until I figured out my feelings.

"Jack calm down please," I begged him. "Yo- you're freaking me ou-o- out." I started to gasp for air. Oh no, a panic attack. It can't happen now... not now.

"Jack you're gonna make her go into a panic attack, STOP!" Conor yelled. "Y/n just breathe, be easy, breathe in, breathe out."

"Co- C- Con-or... you're m-making it wo- worse," I kept gasping and hyper ventilating. Jack came over to me and hugged me, letting me bury my head in his chest. This isn't working either. They both need to stop before, I pass out.

"CONOR CALL AN AMBULANCE!"

A/n: Yay I'm not dead! I've been super busy with a lot and I've had major writers block on all my stories. I actually kind of liked this image. I'm going to do a part 2 of this one but it won't be the next update. I have another idea for something. Thanks for always being patient with me and thank you all for making this book #1 on the Buttercreamsquad tag a couple times. Sadly it's not #1 anymorebecause I quit writing on this for a while but I learned my lesion! If you have friends that also like reading fanfiction and likes the Buttercream Squad then recommend this book to them and my other Buttercream book! Please vote, comment, and request as always! I try to be the author who replies to everyone (if you don't believe me then ask my friend Neesha, we actually met from the comments in this book). Thank you all again! I'll try to update again soon!